about-mira

2010-02-21T07:49:00.000-08:00

Status: Busy working. working. working.
Life: Pain in the ass.
Friends: Everyone's busy working!
Work friends: Cool shit awesome.

I spend most of the time working. I'm having fun at work, but at the same time, i'm bored of doing the same thing everyday.
My energy wasted, is worth the money that's flowing. [Y]

I miss going out with my girlfriends.
I miss all those fun.
I miss laughing my heart out with you girls.
Beep me up okay. I love you girls.

Okay bye! I'm lazy to update anymore. I'm damn tired.
I'm deleting blog soon. I think this is one of my last post. Bored with it. :)

2010-02-11T18:06:00.000-08:00

I love working.

I love working when there's Suriani, Akid, Aisyah, Vanessa and Elly around.
They are one awesome bunch of people!
I can't stop laughing my ass off while working with them. HAHAHAA!
And time flies real fast when they are around.

Next week, DOUBLE PAY! :D
Plus, just a day off. I'm gonna be damn tired, working for 10 hours.
My legs are already aching working for 3 days straight.
Endurance, endurance, endurance!

Finally i'm getting the hang of it. Its hard but, i'm learning. :)
My bestgirls birthday is this week. And so..

Happy 17th birthday to you both; Natasha & Nur Khairunnisa! :D
I love you both!
Meet up soon alright honey! I miss you girls so much.

Gotta go, takecare.

2010-02-07T21:21:00.000-08:00

HIATUS.

2010-01-27T18:45:00.000-08:00

ON HIATUS!

Sorry for privatising my blog just like that. But, i didnt even update a single thing.
So yeah, will do it soon.
Takecare.

2009-12-30T06:55:00.001-08:00

I'M ON HIATUS.

stars/

2009-12-26T20:05:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday To Nurulain!

Do you know NurulAin! Can i just kill you for not telling us when is your departure time?

Pffft, when you come back, i promise you, im gonna nag at you.

Promise eh.

I wanna wish you a happy birthday, but i know you're not in Singapore. Pffft.

I even dreamt of you calling me.

Be honoured that you're in my dreams. HAHAHAA! ^^

Whatever it is, back to serious business.

Happy birthday biatch. Thanks for tolerating all my nonsense. HAHAA!

^^ I likeee~

Yeah, thanks for listening to my nonsensical stories, and 'dreaming' along with me.

Like, Lautner and Rafael Da Silva.

HAHAAA! We're just ceraaazeeyyyyyy~

I love you, forever and always okay babygirl? HAHAA! How's that baby? *ehem*

Come back fast lah you!

I'll be waiting for your return. heh heh ^^

Purple is revolting. HAHAA! ^^

Okayyy, i'm not gonna use blogger than often now. Cause i'm in the process of making tumblr.

HAHAAH! Dont laugh, cause im very selenger okay. I dont even know how that thing goes about.

Pffft, been pressing here and there, but.. i think tumblr hates me.

I'll find my ways then. \m/

Gotta press press anyhow. HAHAHA!

Actually eh... i created tumblr cause i was really bored............. ^^

There's lots i'm gonna do before this year ends. ^^

Wait and see okay babies.

I miss my other two girls too. Ohmayne, when are we gonna meet?! Tsk.

Soler and Aveiro?!

Pffft.

Anyway, i've fixed my cacat hair. yay-yay!

Like finally :D

RKT is backkkkkkkkkkkk! yayyyyyy! Thats the reason why i'm kinda.. H Y P E R!

*jumps up and down*

Oh ya, before i forget, Happy birthday to Wan Lin! I love youuuuu~

And, also Azzrul :)

Have fun on your birthday okay! ^^

I'm blasting off! Chiowwwww peeeps ^^

Me love you all. HAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. k, bye!

Mwahh!`

this

2009-12-24T22:05:00.000-08:00

Tomorrow RKT is baccckkkk homeee! [Y]
Yes yes yes, yay yay yay.

Good things dont last. The toughest love holds on the strongest.
"No matter what comes our way.." kept running in my mind.
I've got to stop thinking tooo far..

"We're still a team no matter how much it hurts.
Remember they are only words,
My heart speaks first."

I gotta do something to my cacat-hair, k bye!

quotes

2009-12-24T03:25:00.000-08:00

We were given: Two hands to hold. To legs to walk. Two eyes to see. Two ears to listen. But why only one heart?
Because the other was given to someone else.
For us to find.

But.

The hottest love has the coldest end....

young

2009-12-23T20:18:00.000-08:00

SEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! tsk. da lah, k bye! :D

speaks first.

2009-12-23T19:41:00.000-08:00

I miss RKT. - three more days left, only....

Holaaaa people! ^^

I'm so paranoid over my hair. I can't stop thinking when will i ever get my very cacat hair fixed.
Heh, endurance Mira! My pay is coming in soon. Tsk.
Mahd says i look like my hair last time. That was my hair when i was a small lil' kid. 3 years old?
Later i'll post a pic about it okay ^^

So basically, went out with my two girls, Iqah and Ain.
Iqah was the princess of the day, cause we had to wait for her to do her hair and all. Sounds so glamourous eh? HAHAA!
Feeling feeling sikit lah kaaaaan~
While waiting for Iqah, Me and Ain went to take the opportunity to walk at Bugis eventough i'm sick of the place.
There's a lady who come and approach Me and Ain.
Hahhhh, i shall not elaborate about it.
tskk~

I was damn blur at KFC. okay shuts~
Went to Esplanade. It had been ages since i last step there. The sunset, buildings, lightings and all. It was awesome.
It was really sweet. ^^

I gotta chiow to meet my mum! Toodles people.
I'll update at night, insyallah.

the heart speaks first.

2009-12-22T20:04:00.000-08:00

No matter what comes our way..

RKT is at KL now. I think? Should be on-the-way to KL.
Wait, time check: 12.06pm.
So, reached KL already.
I hope he is having fun there! :D
& obviously i'm gonna miss him and his craps.

Yesterday, woah, it was awesome.
Talked to him for 5 hours on the on the phone. From 2.00pm-7.00pm.
And we're never out of topics to talk about.
From family-each other-life before Os-life after Os-our past-future.. Alaa, everything!
I finally know what had been going on with him all these while.
I swear, most of the things that he likes, i hate.
&
I didnt sleep till like 5.30am to just text RKT. Accompany him.
HAHAA!
He said. "Miraaaaa, teman me kay? till 5.30am. HAHA! I wont be sleeping! ^^"
So since i will not be working today, i went to accompany him till 5.30am and i went to bed and slept like a pig. ^^
It was crazy. HAHAHA! But at least the televison shows kept me awake. yay-yay.
He left me with a long long long, mcm nk pegi one week vacation punye message early in the morning when im soundly asleep!
Tsk, and i didnt picked up his call! Shiaaat~
Nehmind, i shall plan my schedule well then, i'm gonna irritate my girlfriends ^^
4 days is gonna pass fast. Insyallah.

I'm planning to email the orphanage home for enquires.
But i'm gonna wait till RKT get backs home to discuss with me about it.
I wanna go, thats my resolution for next year, IF i can't fulfill it by this year.
So yeah, i wanna go there with RKTTTTTTTTT. :(

I've gotta blast off. I'm going out with Iqah and Ain!
Toodles yaw ;)
Pictures will be up sooooOoon! ^^

me and you.

2009-12-21T18:44:00.000-08:00

HAHAHAHA, Nat, i realised our pics very limited. Mcm limited edition.
Dont you think so?
Its like digging for gold to find our pictures, i mean, us three picture.
I miss laughing like crazy at DFS.
HAHAAHA!
Lets go out! ^^ I wanna have fun like that time! yay-yay!

Iqah and Ain, i realised our pics berlambak. HAAHAHAA!
Lets go out too!
I dont know since when Ain is so adventurous, she wanna go trekking!
Can you believe it? Please slap me.
Wowwwww~
HAHAHAAHAHAHA!
Lets go out too!

Its been long since i last go out with my girls. Partly because i'm working and they are working.
HAHA!
Hehe, i wanna go out i wanna go out!
You girls never miss me meh? HAAHAHAHA! *insert pathetic face*

I've got a secret to share! Seeeeeee this.

Nat's definition of acting cute.
HAAHAHAHA!
Tell me, how can i not laugh so hard whenever i chat with that bitch? She's mcm mcm.
Every morning, confirm i got something to hear from her.
Her all-time crap.
But still, i love that cute kambing. "beeek-beeeekk-beeekkkkkkkkkk~"
HAAHAHAHAA!
I also love that pig, Nisa! HAHAHAHA! "oink oink!"

I'm crazy over the song, wait eh, i'll change my blog song. And yes, i'm crazy over that song.
All cause of that someone.
RKT is going KL tomorrow. heh-heh-heh!
I know what to do! *evil laughs*
I'm gonna text "talk-to-myself" messages to him!
HAHAHAA! I'm best at it.

24th, i'm going to Straits Kitchen! Can you believe it?! Yay-yay!
Payday 25th! Hoping its the 25th.
And i'm gonna do my very cacat hair! ^^

Okay people! i've gotta blast off!
I'm hungreh lah.
I didnt send in my schedule thats why i cant work. HAHAHAAHA!
Okay babies, toodles!

Lots of Love, Mira (:

cant wait to meet ya.

2009-12-20T18:47:00.000-08:00

See, that was RKT's drawing. AHAHAHAA! I cant stop laughing, looking at it!
He's so cheeky ^^
As stated up there, happy first month to my two lovely bestbuddy& bestfriend <3
I love you both eh! ^^

I'm off to work. Toodles lovers.
Lots of love, Mira.

saturday blues.

2009-12-20T02:50:00.000-08:00

I AM BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAACCCCKKKKKK!!

It seemed like i'm left-out/outdated. Firstly, i'm sorry cause i've been away for such a 'long' time.
Eventough its just for a week :D Oopsie Daisy!
HAHAHA!

Sorry sorry! ;)
So, on Monday is the start of my new work. HAAHA! work life!
Met new friends, one of them is that irritating hor-fun [Irfan]. That psyco, but still fun to be with =.="
We'll argue whenever we meet. But our 'interesting' conversations we had during work made everyone awake! ^^
Work was fun cause i managed to get hold of it after a few minutes of practice (:

I missed all of my girl-friends and it seemed like im the outdated one.
I dont know whats going on with all my girls, how are they doing and all.
So girls, i'm sorry if i've MIA-ing for long.
=)
Do keep me updated ;)
Iloveyou all.
& yeah, i miss you girls hell much mayne.

And yeah, i'm not going for the 29th outing, i just dont feel like it.
So have fun okay? (:
I'm sure you guys will have a blast of madness fun on that day. Do enjoyyyyyy ^^

RKT had been really nice to be these days. i mean, like always? ^^
We talked on the phone like nobody business!
HAHAAHA!
We talked on the phone a few minutes before departure, and he gave me a surprise call when i arrive in singapore!
This guy always know when to give me surprises.
And he flooded my inbox with random "talk-to-yourself-" messages!
HAHAHA! Cause he said, he want me to feel the temptations of replying his messages, cause he knows i cant reply.
I'm gonna kill him later! HAHAHA! :D

Ohyes, i cut my hair. And i regretted the next minute. But then, i kinda feel satisfied cause...
mum finally agrees on me going for treatment! :D
My new hair-cut suck big time mayne!
I hate cutting this hair. wahlao. Can i slap myself for making such rash decision!
Now i look like some cacat girl. HAAHAHAA!
^^
But... i dont care! :P

And to all my N-Level friends, im sure you've done your best. Congrats on your results.
Ohyeah Al, im proud of you. AHAHAHA. My student, HAHAAA!
Siape ajar kau? HAHAA! Dont pray-pray hor.
My efforts are not wasted. *coughs*
Im a part-time-tutor-tak-menjadi! HAHAHAAHAHA! ^^
But still, congratulations! ;)

WoooOOoookayyy! I've gotta blast off.
I'll update next time when i got the time.
Mwaahh!

I swear i miss everyone mayne! Yes, everyone. I miss my awesome woodgrovers-friends, i miss two bestgirls, my two M-I-A girls and more lah!
:(
I miss you all, please note that okay?
Loveyou all forever and always! ♥

Lots Of Love, Mira! <3

Hacker Alert

2009-12-15T07:55:00.000-08:00

Btw, Mira's hacker is here again!!!

She's on a hiatus. Cause she's WORKING.

percaya tak? hahaha!

She's working at bugis, so go kacau her alright?

Okay, I'm gonna go live my life.

Take care lurhve-ly readers.

Btw, Taylor's cuter than Rafael :)

lucky charm

2009-12-11T20:32:00.000-08:00

Find someone whom you can give your respect to,
that'll accept you for who you are,
that'll tolerate all your nuisance,
that'll always makes you feel better after every fights,
that cherish each and every single things that happens between the both of you.
That makes you think, you're the luckiest on Earth.
that will crack so many nonsense jokes just to carve a smile on your face.
that will make you smile instantly.
that will listen to your grumbles and complaints.
Thats sincere..
That respects you, appreciate you, that stops you when they know its not good for you.
That wants just the best for you.

That you know will guide you, and makes you someone better.
Its just someone whom you can look up to.

Thats my dream man.
Ps; i wanna go to the orphanage home, please..

june.

2009-12-11T18:24:00.000-08:00

Now, thats my smile.

I went to bowl with my two girls yesterday, thats with Iqah and Ain.
HAHAA!

And, i totally had loads of fun madness time with them ;)
I won the first game with a higher point that the second one, which i lost =.="
EH, can you believe it? I WON! yay! :D
I totally suck at the second game. Pffft, wahlao~

And i had fun the whole day, going to Novena, Bugis then head back to Orchid Country Club!
Went back at around 9.30pm then slack outside till like 10plus.
Yay!

Sometimes it just turns me off and pisses me off real hard when someone hits you, and you automatically blabber "im sorry." then the person that hits you just looks at you, as though nothing happens. =.="
Ohmygod, you people should really brush up on your manners.
Pffft.

I'll put up more pictures of the day soon okay, thats when after NurulAin uploads it ;)
Stay tune peepos.

And its all about sincerity & trust that catches ones heart.

stay tune. i'll update again, cause i'm gonna be real bored ^^
chalobeteh.

time and patience is essential.

2009-12-10T19:50:00.000-08:00

I come to realise there's alot of things that came across my mind yesterday.

When you really appreciate someone so much, you'll tend to remember every lil' things that you both do, like when you both start knowing each other and all.
And when that person remembers every single things that happens, you'll feel so appreciated.
Honestly speaking, I was really impressed, cause when i ask about everything that happen six months back, RKT still remembers it vividly.
There's not even a single question he answered wrongly.
And the best thing was, from the third to fifth month, we left each other for our big Os.
Eventough we were 'seperated' for quite a sometime, for him to remember every single lil things, that was totally amazing & unexpected.
Thank God, alhamdullilah..
& I shall say, everything that happen for the past six months, from being happy, to leaving each other, to having doubts about whether he'll come back, to NOW.
It was a such blessing.

I began to realise, its the thought that matters the most.
It carves a big smile to my face whenever i see the people around me happy with their life.
And the greatest thing about life is being able to smile and laugh with the people you love, be it your girlfs, boyfs, someone you cherish alot, just anyone.
The moment may not last for long, but still, every minute & second spend is worthwhile.

I've been followin' with the flow real hard these days.
And sometimes, it just feel so wrong to be this way.
Cause you just feel its just isnt you.
But whats the point of wanting to go your way, when everytime it screws up.
And you ending up being so disheartened.

Nat ♥ Nisa ♥ Mira

And to my two girls thats will always be in my heart & soul, [cheyy, feeling-feeling skejap]
I just wanna tell you, I do love you and appreciate this bestfriendship of ours alright?
Yes, its your Nurkhairunnisa Amran and Natasha Norhazman.
My two best-crazy ones!
Awww, now tell me i'm sweet? Hehe ;)
We can laugh, dance, scream, just anywhere right? Even at town right?
And we just dont care those people around us, and still do our own thaaang.
The bottomline is, i love you both!
Mwahhh!

I'm going out with these two bitches today! YAY \m/
See you later!

"The bad outweighs the good sometimes."

Chalobeteh ;)
Withlove, Miraaaaaa!

Answer this pray of mine.

2009-12-10T02:08:00.000-08:00

The feeling of excitement, anxiety, just rushes over me..
My heart thumps abit faster as i'm waiting for tomorrow! Cause i can't wait for something.
I need to head to somewhere to do my thaaang, so girls follow me ;)
I pray to God, please God, please listen to my prayers and grant this wish of mine.

Please...

I need to arrange my schedule fast, cause i'll be busy next week. As i'll be starting work =.="
Tsk, and i need to arrange to meet my JIWA next week. How eh? Wahlao.
Hmmm, i will arrange it okay? :D
AH?! Class BBQ? How? Ohmygod, i'm so paranoid now. :S
I've gotta arrange my schedule, as i suck at doing it.
Pffft.

Thanks Iqah for the blanja! Love you many-many. Hehe.
See you girls tomorrow. Mwaahh~

Lookin' for perfect surrounded by artificial.

2009-12-09T19:01:00.000-08:00

Its like flying without wings.

taap-tip-tupp, RKT went online at night yesterday after a few minutes i went online.
I had a blast of fun madness chatting with him.
He is just insane, serious hell.

we chit-chatted and started playing games. ALL KINDS OF GAME.
See eh.. From tic-tac-toe to bowling to bejewelled to hexic to scisors paper stone to bumper stars.
And he is never sick of all the games we played.
He didnt grumble or whatsoever, we just played all the wayyyyyyyy~
HAHAHA! (:

And i really love the part when we played BOWLING.
ohmygod, chaos mayne! ^^

He was like... "kay Mira, you see ehh.. see tau! see how a professional play!"
He didnt strike.
I said. " Woww, thats professional... ohhhh. AHAHAHAA!"
He said... "alermaaaak! that one testing only.." <- see, he follows my word! ;P then i was busy laughing, he went to hit me back with his words. " tapi kan Mira... at least i strike, you? HAHAHHA! kidding ;)"

I just can't stop laughing whenever he is so confident he'll strike but didnt strike at the end!
" You seee ehh.. the ball will KURL... seee!"

RKT just love laughing at me whenever i can't hit all of it. He stand-by the "HAHAHAA" already!

The result was, really cool! awesome!
We had the same score! And it kinda shocked me, cause its real hard to get the same scores!
But.. we did! HIGH FIVE!
So, we both are professionals ;)
The bottomline was, we had alot of fun! Time passes so fast mayne, that was so unfair ;)
ALOOOT OF FUNNNN(:
I swear, it feels good to smile and laugh sincerely after such a long time..

Its just that he can layan my nonsense and craps.
We changed DP, telling each other what happen this and that.
We talked about kids, his favourite cousin, ohmygod so cute.

And its like we never chat before? oh, the last we chat was 19th Sep 2009, mind that. Its one day before Hari Raya Aidilfitri.
^^

Panda was like putting us in a mass convo, then he asked us to go out on the Tuesday. Next tuesday. And i just remembered, its his birthdayyyyyyyyyyyyy. omg.
I think i'm gonna do something or meet up when i finish work i guess? :S
I thought it was on 29th =.=" I always get my dates wrongly.
And it feels so real. I've gotta slap myself.
I think i've gotta bring a calender everywhere i go, and if its not for this watch, i think..
I'd end up telling myself everyday its the 20th ++ ...

I'm going out with my two girls tomorrow. Ain and Iqah.
And i'm gonna make sure, we'll have a blast of fun. Insyaallah. YAY! \m/
Nurulain, thanks for queeing up for me. HEHE. ;D
Loveyou many many eh. ^^
Korang celebrate birthday due due, thenme?! AHAHAA! Ohya, you both younger than me ^^

I'm just following the flow. I switched off all my emotions, to care, to get myself upset, disappointed, etc.
I just dont wanna give a damn, and see how my life goes like this way.
Its rocky, its shaky.
I just look and see how it goes like. So you go have fun okay(:

After all, i follow with the flow life gotta give me.
I'm gonna start work and think about work startin' on Monday.

RKT just wants me to be a NIKE fan. =.=" Cause he is a life-time NIKE member.
And sometimes i just realised.
The things that i dont like, are the things that he likes.
And his answer was?

"Greaaat! That means we can click real well!"
That carves a real big smile to my face (:

HAHAHAA! I'll smile this way eh RKT :P

Okay chalobeteh, pictures will be up tomorrow, thats if NurulAin brings her camera ;)
Which i know, she'll first do her magic-trick first!
AAHAHAA!

Love y'all <3
When someone understands me, lately thats more than ive ever ask for.

cherish

2009-12-08T20:36:00.000-08:00

There's one thing that always makes me feel so good, thats cause you always have the power to make me feel better..

I felt better walking on my own at Iluma, Bugis Village, Bugis Junction.
I dont know why?
Perhaps when you're alone, you'll then know yourself the best.

Today? 8th, sixth. Hello sixth.
He surprised me at midnight with a wish! Wow, i was so speechless when i saw that. Only God knows my reaction.
Thanks for the relentless six months. i really appreciate each and every of those wonderful things that happens.
And i'm really happy, cause there we'rent any fights at all.
Cause, you said. ME+YOU= WE ROCK! \m/

It had not yet ended, but it'll end real soon. :(
So, i'm gonna cherish each and every left-over days.
See people, when you know its gonna end, or its ending, or it ended, you'll then know how to appreciate the person more, and cherish everything better.
Thats when you realised, everything that happened were all so sweet.
So, don't ever take people for granted.
Now, take your phone, and text those people, be it your friends, or girlfriends or boyfs or loved ones, on how much you appreciate them, cause you'll never know when its ending, perhaps in few seconds?
I've learned alot.
Cause when someone you named your 'best' leaves you, then you'll know the pain.
You'll then feel worst.

I admit, i'm still not okay. Despite me laughing so hard sometimes, but still, this things still haunts me down alot of times, most of the times to be precise.
I just.. dont know how to shake this feeling off.

I wake up thinking its Sunday, and kept asking myself, why arent my parents at home?
When its actually Tuesday. I just.. dont know whats wrong with me.
I kept telling myself today is the 22nd? and i thought Christmas is just around the corner.
I know.. i just need people to slap my face to make me awake.
I got my date wrongly, whats next?

sixth

2009-12-07T18:46:00.000-08:00

AMAZED.

Throughout the six months, there's never any single arguments, complications, not even a single misunderstandings.
Not even a single problem..
All we did was to laugh & smile.

Yeah, i'll pull myself through. Sigh.
Thanks for the tags. I really appreciate each and every of those tags.
I've read every of your tags, and it just teared me up.
I just.. dont know what to do.
I'm just helplessly thinking whats next.
This is how sucky life can get..

Tomorrow = sixth. :,(

Life is never fair.

2009-12-04T21:07:00.001-08:00

See, i am smiling...

3 days to a SIX.

I can feel my heart breaking every single second, i aint kidding.
I woke up, crying so miserably.
Whenever i'm alone, i'd tend to daze and look into blank spaces.
Thats when i'd start crying.

I know you've yet to break the news to me, but i know whats the news gonna be about.
I know deep down inside you, it just feels so hard to break it to me.
But still, you've got to.
I've made a promise, i'd understand every of your situation, even if it means, i'd let my heart get broken. I kept to every of my words.
That's wonderfully a big thaang to me, cause who in the world would let their heart get broken just like that.
I know many are worried about me, well guys, i'll be fine, eventough i wont be, but still, i just will be okay...
I'm sad, i'm in despair, i'm devastated. But still, i know nothing could change that fact i'm gonna hear it from you, real soon.
Many had been there for me, giving me hugs in MSN, but still, thaanks so much, i appreciate each and every of them, eventough its just literally.
I'd pretend that i'm fine, cause i never wanna see the people around me sad because of me, which i know, one kind soul would do that.

Someone told me yesterday: Face those challenges/obstacles with a smile.
I tried, many consoled me, i couldnt do anything more, but to just cry cry cry.
I'd be a cry baby, when it comes to this, i'm not a strong girl deep down. How much i tell myself, i'm gonna make it through, but still, it hurts me deep down.

I'd tend to keep looking back, smiling to myself how great was those times.
You sang to me on the phone, with your superb voice.
We talked like as though there's no tomorrow and its like we could relate to each other so well.
You were there for me, when i was at my wits end.
Things were so right everytime we text each other.
We'd laugh, smile to the phone.
We fought over Manchester Utd and Liverpool. We'd assure each other so many things.
There's never doubts we had between each other.
How much we tried to motivate each other to study,and wishes each other all the best for every exams, like Listening Compre, Orals and etc. You'd ask me, how was the paper after each paper ended.
We'd bring each other up whenever one is down.
I could never ask for more when there's you.
You tolerated each and every of my dumb questions and still say, you're not tired of it.
We'd listen to MJ12 and then, you'll text me, "I'm with you."
You've always told me, how beautiful or gorgeous i'd look even when i'd say i look so horrible.
You still sided me through every of my probs, and do everything to just make me smile.
We're not sick of tolerating each other's nonsense/rantings/stupidity.

And when i ask, did you regret knowing me? your answer was: We should have known earlier!

I still remember your words, "I'd never lie just to impress a senorita."
How can i not smile? How can i now feel so head-over-heals?
Its just JUST a six months, its a six months, a rollercoaster of emotions.
I waited, i ponder, i let my heart get broken.
There was once, you said, i'd be in my tuxedo, and with my red car under your block, to pick you up and go somewhere nice.
You've always made me go goo-gooo-gaga over the things you say.
I felt like everything was like in a dream.

You once told me, "My dream girl is the girl ive met five months back."
:,(

Being sad about you, had never crossed my mind, cause i've never been sad because of you.
And now, i'm in despair, thinking all day long, about how am i gonna cope.
The past 6 relentless monts really thought me to be a very patient girl.
I prayed to God, telling God, i never wanna let this string be broken.
But still, it broke.
I know God has His own reasons.

But Dear God, could you give me the strength to overcome all this? You know i'm real weak deep inside, i aint strong, but yet, you've given me an obstacle that i've never thought would ever happen.
I understand that you've got your reasons for everything that happens.
You made me into a really patient girl, and now, please give me the strength to carry on.
I feel so worst each time i wake up.
And its like i am not looking forward for whats gonna happen till the end of the day.
I cant help it but to pretend to everyone i'm okay.
I can't live breaking one kind soul's heart.
Please tell me, why is all this happening. :,(
I cant possibly cry every day right...

I walked out, looking to the world like as though i blamed everyone for me being this way.
I eat so much till i dont even realise it.

When would the news be broken to me?

I did every that i could to stop myself from thinking about it, to stop myself from frowning.
I played games, i go out.
But when i'm alone, those things starts to haunts me down.

How am i ever gonna put those wonderful treatments you've given me aside?
What's gonna happen if i were to read all those text messages back?
We're like a part of each other already.
And when a part of us is missing, how'd you feel?

I can laugh, smile, giggle, scream, shout, but at the end of the day...... I'd end up crying.

I need hugs, i need chocolates, i need a listening ear, i need someone to let me punch them, i need surprises, i need food, i need to go out, i need to a shoulder to lean on, and to cry to..
But i need someone that'll make me feel euphoria just like you do..

I understand everything that happens or is happening.
We've gotta let go.
You've always said: Expect the unexpected. right?

I'll miss each and every of those times. I swear.
You've strained your eyes to just text me,
You've told me your lil' cute secrets, that makes me laugh,
You've been there for me when i'm in pain.
Life is never fair, so how much i grumble, its just a waste of time.

I'm sorry if i've let the people around me down by being this way.
Its just not easy to let it go...
Its hard to let go, cause i really appreciate you alot.
I'm blessed to have you here walking through the six months with me.
I've never feel so appreciated before but now...

I made mistakes & i learned..
Alot.

If only you knew and if only you could read this broken heart of mine, you'll then know.
And sincerely, thaank you so much.... for... everything.....

You'll be a sunflower, cause its vibrant just like you..
See, how can i not cry? :,(

*gasp for air*
I'll pull myself through..... I will...

Its like, Shoes without laces, bread without butter, sleeping without a blanket, a child without its mum,

Its like, Life without Colours.
Sigh.

I can't stoppp myself from crying, thats the truth...

Catch me up later.

2009-12-03T18:31:00.000-08:00

I NEED A BREAK FROM EVERYTHING. ON HIATUS.
I can't stand this, i just can't.
I just cant take what Life has to give me. I need a time for myself.
I need to just put everything away.
This is a great blow to me.

Don't ask me if i'm okay, cause obviously i'm not.
I'm DOWN DOWN DOWN. =,(
I wanna run away.
I just need someone to understand me. My life. My current situation.
Fvck everything.

*gasp for air*
I'll be back soon....

random

2009-12-03T03:20:00.000-08:00

RANDOM.

I wanna go Australia. I used to grumble going there, cause i hate it.
But now, i want.
I need to kill time.
I hope i'm going somewhere.

be oblivious.

2009-12-02T06:43:00.000-08:00

The truth is : I hate you working.

I hate you working, you know that? I hate it cause whenever you come back,
you'll talk to me as if you dont wanna talk to me.
I've got a whole lot of stories to tell you, but you're so tired.
I hate it.
Especially during your OTs.
I really hate it.

You may be oblivious of whatever thats happening.
But the truth is, i hate it.
Have you asked yourself, why i sounded SO HAPPY on the phone?
The reason is, i'm talking to you after one whole day you're working, and i'm doing my own things.
Plus, we talked only once in a day. You know that?
All you know is that you're busy working, and i know you dont know whatever thats happening.
And when i'm away, then you'll know whats its like.
I think i shall do that, wait, eighteen more days right? Yes :(
I talked like as though we've not talked for days.
I sounded sooo high, i was shouting on the phone. I wonder if you ever realise each and every of that.
Talking to you is like my daily routine, and if i were to miss it, the feeling is so different.
When i was working at Adidas, deep down inside me, i know i missed lots of things.
That was for two days only.
Cause the truth is i love talking to you. I love irritating you.
I love screaming/shouting to you.
I love listening to you listening to me.
Sometimes i feel, its just the same like, i rather go away than to be here?

YOU DONT KNOW RIGHT? =(
I wonder if you even care?
I wonder if you even notice?

As i'm typing, the tears are welling.
I'm so pissed.
You talk rubbish when you're so sleepy. And when i said. "Okay bye." and straight away put down the phone,
Do you know it sucks? It really sucks you know.

Yes, i'm tryna be really understanding. But, somehow, for how long?
I know its like, AT LEAST you called.
AT LEAST you talked to me for a minute or so.
I wanna work, I wanna feel the life working. I dont care as long as i could kill the time.
It sucks doing nothing.

I feel so demanding. I feel so unappreciative.
But hey, sometimes you've gotta switch all your emotions off, and start thinking of yourself.
Stop being selfless.
You need it. You can always be thinking of the other party when they are too busy to think themselves.

So hardworking till its like equivalent to = I dont exist at all.
Right Nat?
Somehow i wish, i could goooooooo away, far away and see whether you'll notice my existance or not.
Evil me huh? The truth is, i'm just feeling so icantdescribe.
I may grumble as much to the whole world, but somehow i know, it brings back no good.
So im grumbling to kill time.
I wonder what are those people not working doing? =(

I wanna join in the fun.
The truth is i miss going out. I miss having fun.
I'm jealous seeing others going out as groups, laughing, talking, catching up.
Right Nisa?
I missed all those times.

I will wait till you realise. My patience is thicker/deeper than you think.
:(

IT SUCKS HAVING THIS FCUKING FEELING.
==================================================================

I give up, i'm serious. I can't believe it myself.

Happy birthday Amii

2009-12-01T07:31:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthdayyy Nur Amirah! (:

This girl here, i used to damn so much, only God knows how much i dislike her.
Cause of that someone,
But i shouldnt rake up about the past, cause if its not for him, i'd not be friends with her right?
So, both ways, thaaank you (:

Thaaanks for being so patient with me and yeah, at least the past did not affect us again.
Well, at least the past made us close right?
HAHA. Thank God everything is settled and we're not kept in the dark anymore.
Well, to that someone, if your reading this blog of mine, please don't feel the pinch okay.

Well Nur Amirah or Amii Segiwella,
Stay pretty always alright hunney? And, happy birthdayyy! may you have the best birthday this year!
I love you and anything just beep me up okay?
haha! We love to bitch and gossip right? LOLS. <3

HAPPY FIFTEEENTH BIRTHDAAAYYYYY PRETTY GIRLLLLL ! <33

Mwaaahhh!

Withlove, Mira(:

Dream.

2009-11-30T18:51:00.001-08:00

"I've prayed hard enough for your recovery, so you'll recover by tomorrow alright! (: "

:(
Yes, Thank God, i'm recovering.
I starve myself to almost the end of the day yesterday.
I woke up at 9.30, and all i did was to vomit vomit vomit, and not eat anything till 8.30PM.
I fvucking feel so weak. Woah.
This is always the routine i've gotta go through every month :(
Thats why it hardly comes.
I hate this. It sucks.

I know this is a dream.
I know, we leave everything to God.
I know this will never come true, Only God could turn it into reality.
Its all up to fate.
& We both know, its all a dream, living in a fantasy.

I've made my points so clear.
I just realised it yesterday. Well, its not what i think, its concluded from both parties.
And if it happens, "It'll be a dream come true." [when it doesnt]

I'm going out with them today! okay bye (:
Love y'all!

Prom night 09.

2009-11-30T03:28:00.000-08:00

MY FAV PICTUREEE ^^

PROM NIGHT 09'

Okay, prom night 2009 was awesome.
The food was okay-okay, but still, since i was hungry, i musnt grumble much but to just eat! ^^
Only God knows how paisey i was walking out of Nat's house.
She was like, C'mon Mira, go go go!

I had a blast of an awesome night with my loved ones.
I enjoyed each and every minute spent.
HAHAA!
*thumbs up.

I'm gonna miss everyone! (:
Pictures in!

My bestfriend!

Amirul!

Nisa.

Mahyuddin.

Ainur Natasha.

Korean Star! AHAHA!

Ain Ali.

My bestfriend! Adli IrfaN (:

8years.

Danny Suppas Daughter! Shakeshake! (:

The 4E10s!

Cactusssss! Shorttyy!

Mahyuddin Mazlan!

4e10 babes!

Perry, dance partner.

Douglas.

The rest, is inside my comp. HAHAHAA!
I took over 50 pictures, dont expect all to be here right!
HAAHAHA!

And, thaaaanks Natasha C Aveiro for making me up! :D
Thaaanks Nisa for the picturesss!
LOVEYOUGIRLS!

Mwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!
I ♥ You all.

Withlove, Mira(:

sick.

2009-11-29T01:46:00.001-08:00

Here's the start of another misery.

I'm not feeling well, I feel like vomitting. And i ate only once for the whole day.
I feel like crying cause its so painful.
But, ive gotta endure.
I cant walk around too much.
I feel like sitting outside the toilet till midnight.
Everything seems so dreadful to me.
I dont wanna talk to anyone, i feel like screaming, because : IT IS PAINFUL.
Ohgod, this is killing me :,(

I AM SICK SICK SICK SICK :,(

deception.

2009-11-28T19:26:00.000-08:00

The worst deception: A guy can make you think he loves you, but he really doesn't. And a girl can make you think she doesn't love you, when she really does.

Pretty can be true enough uh?

Prom pictures coming in soon, stay tune(:

who to run to.

2009-11-26T09:09:00.001-08:00

My three-stripes job was awesome.

Theodora! (:

YAAAAN!

Abigail & Kim!

My hot boyfriend body (:

ABIGAIL!

Feeling-feeling under the light skejap lah (:

Hustlers!

CAMERA TAKEN OKAY! (:

[Sorry,cause our face all very masai. (: ]

Your jealousy, brings you to nowhere, you dont know me, YET.

Its rather i tell you than someone else telling you right?
So now, after i tell you, you're this way?
See, you still dont know who the real me. I can say whatever shit i want, but the fact is that i dont mean it at all.
I was kidding, hey you should know me SO WELL you know.
Was i angry for long before?
I was tired inside me, but still, i didnt talk to you that way.
I thought i was supposed/ will be the one talking to you that way? Cause ye lah, people from work, tired right?
But then, no, i still talked to you like normal [ in fact better] , cause i was excited about talking to you.
Do you know that? i doubt so.
I was practically being an irritant, telling Min,

"ohplease, i need to reach home by 12. I want to talk to that someone. I hope that someone wont be asleep! Sigh. You think i can reach home by that time tak? Can takkkkk?"

And i repeated it for like IDK how many times.
He kept motivating me, and advising me. Woah, thanks Min.
I felt better after each of his advises.

I wanted to tell you, things werent gonna be the way its gonna be y'know.
I wanted to prove it to you.
Hearing you talking to me that way, I looked down, and i could feel my heart breaking every single second.
My tears were welling.
I kept pushing myself, " No Mira you can do something about this. C'mon."
I couldnt stand it, i gave up halfway after trying for a few times.
I was being apologetic. But you said?
"Da lah, mrepek ah."

Hey, have you heard me saying sorry to you for so many times?
Cause i dont know whats wrong with you!
I said sorry for like everything which i thought may be the cause you were this way,
but your reply to me was *insertthebestwordforit*

I dont know. I dont know lah. Nothing lah.
Tak tawu uh.

THEN, one minute of silence.
ME? *insert dumb face*
I know you're upset about that bloody thing.
But ive put it aside.
Its ridiculous if i were to prolong something that had already happen.
If you remember, if you dont.
I fcuking hell dont wish to know about it too now, anyway.
AFTER ALL, ITS DONE. SO SHUT THE BLOODY HELL UP ABOUT THAT.

Well, pardon me for the language.
Hmmm, work? It was a hella of an awesome day. Worked for like 12 hours.
When they on the song, Im at War. woah, my eyes poped out! HAHAA!
It reminds me of that someone.

HUSTLERS.
I had fun with Abigail dancing, gooving while working.
I had fun partnering with Kim to do the stacking.
I had fun with Dora disturbing each other.
I had fun with Min LAUGHING MY ASS OFF!
I had fun with Yan being a minah-tidak-menjadi. HAHAHAA!

Iloveyouall!~

We danced, we sing, we shout, we laughed, we bitch, we joke.
Butterscoth. SHH!
Apparels? Adidas yeah! Three stripes dance yawwww~
We're the Hustlers!

\m/
Yayyy! Ive done with my updates. Tomorrow is grad night.
And i heard... Nevermind, shut it.
Well, ive not bought my prom dress, but tomorrow is the day.
Yes i am dead. Dead meat (:

Nevermind yawwww, esai. HAHA!
Okay dokeeeyyyy, i wish the orphanage-day would be true. I wish upon a star..
I'm out now.

Selamat Hari Raya Haji (:

I can feel your sincerity. Cause the futher i go, the more questions i ask myself.
Now, its up to me.
Toodles Lovey Doveyy(:

I ♥ you all.
Mwaaaahhhhhhhhhhh~
Withlove, Mira!(:

hola

2009-11-25T15:20:00.001-08:00

Six months back. - You.

Oh hello lovelies.

I'm here early in the morning to update.
Time check: 7.21am.
And in about ten minutes time, i'm going to meet Yan & Min.

My working experience, yesterday? Woah, it was a hella awesome day. I swear.
I can't stop laughing.
I kept telling myself, "Wah, i kept laughing, im sure im gonna cry at night lah!"
Haha, but nope, i didnt cry.
Min a sucha nice guy, he is a nice guy to talk about r/s to. Woah, serious shit.
Great listener.
Dora, Abigail and Kim were great! We laughed, bitched. Everything.
The people there were awesome, great (:
Thank God i could click on well with them, alhamdullilah.

Someone slept so early yesterday. Well, i really dont know how true was that.
But its okay.
RKT texted me to update me on the results on the show. Suspension lah! Tsk~
Then we continued texting for till about 2AM.
Ohgod.
I was sooooo tired, my body was aching but still, my eyes couldnt shut. WTH.
I had an amazing converstion with RKT.
We shared one common interest & also on the 13th, IF....

He said. " I wanna volunteer myself to teach Maths at an orphanage, any of these days uh."
Me : HUH?! I WAAAAAAAAANT! I've been wanting to go since idk when.
He said. "You can come alooooooong! it'll be great. after all its just my plan (:
Me : YEEEES PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! Haha. but how to?
He said: Oh, i can ask my ibu, she knows (:

I cut it short, but somehow it was that way.

I had been wanting to go to an orphanage to help out. Ohgod, we have the same interest.
*thumbs up with a cheeky smile *

I am so tired. I need to go to work now. Chalobeteh lovelies.
I love you all.
Mwahh~

We both acted, as though everything was a dream.
WithLove, Mira!

thank you.

2009-11-24T16:09:00.001-08:00

"I know that he loves me, cause its obvious."

Pardon me for me being so fickle minded.
Cause firstly, you'll see me posting a very sad post, the other post will be a happy one.
But, after all, this is the only place for me to rant out my feelings right?
Its my blog (:

Well, i've decided to put yesterday's post away. Cause.. Da tkder kuase lagi. *peace fingers.*
Heh.

I'm gonna update on yesterday's outing.
Woah, i had a hell of fun madness yesterday. I swear.
Paranormal activity wasnt scary at all, i swear. I hate that show. I was all the way waiting for that certain day, but =.="
I've watched more horror movies than that. Pffft.
I think MJ12 is worst than this. Eventough we just listen and imagine. tsk~

Sorry to my lovely couples, my bestbuddy and my bestfriend, Luq and Nisa.
HAAHA! Cause they waited for me, Princess Mira. HAHAA! [Must get used to it]
And, Al. He is not a prince eh. Pffft.
For like about 30 minutes. Woah, thats looooOoong. Hehe.

Then then, we went to Cineileisure to watch that WHAT-A-BORING-SHOW.
We headed aimlessly to Marina, we walked straight. HAAHA!
Jalan yang lurus adalah jalan yang benar. <- our quote of the day. HAHA! Impressive wasnt it? I was not hungry. Al was busy nagging at me, pestering me to eat. WAHLAO. Lose out to my mum sia.
Told ya, he can be my daddy and also mummy ;)

Anyway, i could smell JEALOUSY yesterday night. HAHAAHA!
I dont know? *insert dumb face*

The bottomline was, i enjoyed yesterday's outing so much.
I can't stop laughing cause Yan's friend was totally a joker, His laughters was so contagious y'know!
I can laugh immediately whenever he starts fake laughing. Eventough he is fake laughing it,
Woah, i can't stop laughing.
HAHAHA!

I enjoyed each and every minute spend, serious.
I enjoy looking at Nisa and Luqman's fight, woah, real sweet.
I enjoy looking around.
I enjoy laughing.
I enjoy scaring Al-Z, eventough for the actual fact, i failed. But still, i was being an irritant y'see.
I enjoy hearing Al-Z nag at me.
I enjoy listening to all those crap-sweetness Al-Z told me along the way. [Random huh?]
I enjoy fighting with Al-Z.
I enjoy seeing Al-Z giving me his stern look, my reply would be? "Oh, you're never mad at me right? HAHA!"
I enjoy listening to Nisa and Luqman.
I enjoy seeing the way Luqman carry Nisa's bag, OMG, total sweetness.
I enjoy everything!

Cause my friends are one crazy bunch! ;)

Thanks Nisa, Luqman, Yan & Friend,

& thanks to you too, Al-Z (:

I ♥ you all.

Okay chalobeteh lovelies.
I need to start going shopping real soon. OMG. *but i'm lack of time.
Toodles.

I talk about you now.

2009-11-24T06:08:00.000-08:00

Its all about you.

You told me lots of things, from A to Z to just gave me the assurance.
But i saw the other thing.
With my own eyes.
Couldnt it be lying to me? No, i doubt that.
I was dreaming, being a CSI. But, i guess, i was halfway there.
The problem was, i dont know who was that.
When that was the puzzle i wanted to solve.
After all, that wasnt what i wanted to see.

Its all about trust.
Yeah, so much about that. Now i dont know whether i should continue or not.
See, i'm having doubts on everything.

Cause my trust, comes ONCE. Not twice.
You can tell me whatever shit, i'm naive after all. I trust everyone around me.
But once they betray, woah, I'll start having difficulties.

I'm so paranoid right? Should i be?
Everything i do, its so wrong. I hate this. I hate this.
Why is life doing me this way?
I HATE THIS.

I'll return you, double of that. Mark my words.

I hate living this way. I dont know where to go.
I dont know what steps should i take.

You choosed that, and it was all about yourself. You know that?
But still.... *winks.

HAHAAHAHA! I am fine, no worries (:
*thumbs up!

I'll promise, a double of that.
Toodles Readers.

I see different shades now.

huhuhu

2009-11-23T16:59:00.000-08:00

*looks at my tagboard* HAHAHAA! My friends are bitches. ^^

Okay greetings everyone!

And so, its so early in the morning. I'm going out soon! Yay!
I went out with my dearest OBS mates, oh wow. i miss every single of them.
I had fun playing Arcade. HAAHAHA!
Joke of the day. " Kah Eng brought out her camera only at the end of the day =.=" "
And then, she gave us that blur-innocent look. HAHA!

Skip that, I'll post on my outing with my friends today, tomorrow alright!
Stay tune.

& I AM SO GONNA CHANGE MY BLOGSONG! HAAHAHAHAA!

I'm in love with Warda's blogsong, and everytime, i'd go to her blog to read her fantastic life story & also to listen to her song!
Its an old song, but its really meaningful to me, esp.

Okay chalobeteh! ;)

Stay tune tomorrow huneeeehhh~
Withlove, Mira!

see you.

2009-11-22T18:28:00.000-08:00

See, get what i mean now?

"I could fill a thousand pages telling you how I felt and still you would not understand. So now I leave without a sound, except that of my heart shattering as it hits the ground."

I could never understand life, i could never understand whats the real meaning of life.
Is life meant to make us confuse?
Well, i dont know. Heh.

It seems like every step i take, its getting harder for me.
But please dont tell me, i've dont have to move?
I was awake by someone really very extraordinary random today, that was RKT (!)
Why i said it that way?
Cause it was unexpected. Imagine, being left for like a few days. keeping quite. Silence all the way.
Then the next day you hear something from that person?
But oh well, i'm just thankful that he does still remembers me though.
After all, its the thoughts that counts the most right? (:
Be appreciative, instead of grumbling. [Fake!] AHHAAHAHA!
I smiled the first thing in the morning. Yay!
If a person texts ya in early in the morning or late at night, it means you're the first person or last person they are thinking! ;)
Sorry, i'm really bad at explaining, but it goes something like that~
Hehe.

I AM GONNA MEET MY OBS-mates TODAY!

And i'm really excited. yay! I miss each and every of them.
We're going cycling. and eat dinner outside! ^^
I'm so so happy you know.
See you guys soon!

Someone's gonna be the next Jay Sean tonight! (:
And, i went through alot to see his process of being the next Jay Sean okayyyyyy~
So cocky. =.="
Pity me please will you? Ohya, Jay Sean dont talk to Plain Jane (:

Toodles Sexy! I wanna enjoy my day today and tomorrow! (;

Mwahhh~
Withlove, Mira! (:

sigh.

2009-11-21T18:41:00.000-08:00

Let me tell you my amazing night.

After all, crying out is the best solution.
I guess i was really down, even by blasting some fast music to my ears, i still cry?
And even when i'm typing this, i feel like crying?
Ohgod, what the hell is wrong with me? I keep telling myself, i'll pull through, but hey, its not working.
I kept myself busy. I locked myself in my room.
I stayed home.
Just to get rid of all those things, but, its not working.
I woke up feeling so upset.
I guess i can be fickle minded at times.

Skip that, i had fun bitching with Amsyar! Omg, i can't stop laughing.
He is really great at bitching eh.
We were bored so we decided to play the bowling game. And tic-tac-toe.
See, HE IS THE PRO! wahlao, bowling is so not my game, not even in the net! Pffft.

Then, he went offline, and so, Ijan was bored, i was bored too.
We played a really cute game and also bowling, but.. I WON! yayyyy! ~

The reason was because i was really bored. Guys are great bitching partner eh.
Tsktsk, I sound like a saddist sia.
What the hell.
Okay shutup Mira.

I woke up feeling so upset, and my face was so pale.
I feel, its so unfair. I need someone to talk to me.
I think i'm going out today. Chalobeteh.

Okayyyyy, Toodles lovelies ;)
Withlove, Mira.

dare to dream

2009-11-21T05:37:00.000-08:00

Many said its never ganna come true. Well, I dont mind.

I'm gonna stick to this dream. For even if its never gonna come true.
At least it makes me smile?
I love dreaming, i love to dream. I want to dream.

Dreams do come true, according to Barbie.
But impossible is nothing, according to Adidas. :(

I used to slap myself for dreaming, but for the real fact i aint dreaming.
I rather dream, than to be in reality.

Cause at least, i dare to dream.

mystery

2009-11-21T02:56:00.000-08:00

Its hard to see or hear me sulk, but its harder when i sulk.

Let me tell you my oh-very-lazy life today. *rolling on the floor laughing! ;)

NAMASTE WORLD! *imissIndia =(

I was being a hardworking girl in the morning and also an evil girl.
I was awake when my aunt came, but then i went to lock the room and let them talk talk talk.
While, i sleep. HAHA!
Cause for sure i know, they are gonna wake my beauty sleep up! [Fake!]

I started my day being very bossy and grumpy mood. Tsk.
I was really grumpy.
Then, my dad started being so nice to me. Very nice indeed.
My mum too.
What the hell? I am very very pissed in the morning. Tsk~ Shutup.
Dont ask me about it.

And so, ive yet to tell you my awesome day sitting at home. RARE uh. ^^
I started my day by being a nice girl, by doing my housework. Clean my room, Okay ain shutup.
Buying things for my daddy. Doing my chores.
And, i sat down watching malaysian drama. Then, *this part, DONT LAUGH.*
I watched BARBIE! Eh, i love watching barbie ;)
After all, there's a kid in everyone.
HAHA! Then, when it finish, i watched Hindustan =.=" NUMBER ONE. [Tv2]
After that, i went to watch, another Hindustan movie. NUMBER TWO. [Tv1]
Then.. i watched swimmming! HAHAA!
Then, then, i watched my third hindustan movie of the day! at Vasamtham Central! ;)

I am startled too myself cause i watched Hindustan movies which i never like watching actually.
But nevertheless, you know.. Hindustan movies, they always gives nice phrases.
And, i copied them down!
Here is an example, they are true actually.. When i think back uh.

Eventough girls are weaker than guys, But in the heart, guys are weaker than girls.
&
A woman can live without a man, but a man can never live without a woman.

Tadaaaaa! Told yaaa!~ :D
MMDM texted me he watched Paranormal Activity. And his reviews on the movie, was...
HAHAAHA! terrifying me.
But, nevertheless, i still wanna watch it! :D
C'mon MMDM, you're way stronger than this! Right? yeaahh~
Figure out whose him! ;)

I wanna get my butt off this house tomorrow.
Yay!
And, its a confirmed i'm going overseas on the 17the Dec with my lovely family! =(
Tsktsktsk~
& I'm started to open up my emails, which i never like doing it, cause i'm lazy.
Right Hairi? HAAHA!

Chaaaaaaaaaaaaloooooooobeteeeeeeeeeh!

I've gotta go, takecare. Toodles people!
Withlove, Mira! (:

I AM PISSED.

2009-11-20T08:25:00.000-08:00

I am mad yet i put this smile. Sarcasm noted.

I AM VERY PISSED. OMG.

I am so pissed. very pissed. Omg, im so pissed.
I dont know lah. I'm so pissed.
Whatever lah Al.

I feel like eating right now. Its like.. 12.27am right now!
How long am i gonna be like this?
tsktsk.
My blood went up to 168th storey high. =.="
FVCK.
Thanks eh, thanks. I'm just so mad.

"Ye lah, push the blame to me (:"
wow!

Sarcasm noted, not appreciated eh Al!

GOODNIGHT! Have a nice sleep.

my 3 girls.

2009-11-20T06:12:00.000-08:00

I LOOK TALL EH? HAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA ;)

I HAD A GREAT DAY with my girls! ♥

First of all, i was called up for an interview. And at first, i confidently told others, it was at Bukit Panjang.
And when i saw that, it was a 'phewww' for me.
Cause at least its still under the Red Line. [North Side]
& So in the middle of the night, i went into my hotmail hoping to see another company sending me some other informations on the jobs i applied,
but, too bad how sad, there wasnt any.
THEN WHEN I OPEN BACK THE EMAIL THE COMPANY SEND ME. *this part must excited abit*
it was actually PASIR PANJANG =.="
I was busy concentrating on the Panjang. AHAHAHAA!
So, i was freaked out. & texted Nurulain which kindly agrees on following me to go for the job interview.
We were lost, and we were late for 20 minutes.
But whatever it is, we kinda regret after that.
Ain kept repeating this. "Eh, i have a life okay. I have a life!"

And the bottomline was, we kinda regret? *inserts big confuse smile?*
Pfffft.

Then i decided to go meet Nisa and asked Nat along. Nisa was the courageous one today.
She went in to almost every shop to ask whether is there any vacancy. ^^
Met Nat, we head to town to......... HOORAY-HOORAY!
HAAHAHA!
But i swear, i had fun at town. Fun like hell.
We laughed like as though we owns the place. But who cares? We're being ourselves. Right? (:
They danced, i look. HAHA!
Then bumped into Nabil and Nashiir. Omg, i miss Nabil man.
Of course lah, they are always working. I hate work. Yes, that goes the same to you, Al.
Take note of that.
And so! We walked walked walked. Our legs were aching the moment we reached TAKA.
But nevertheless, we had FUN being a superstar for a minute to take pictures with some people! ;)
I love you girls! Mwahh~

And now, my legs are aching. :(
Al is pissing me off by going town. Okay shuts. Your business. =.="

Okay i wanna go off now. My leg needs rest. HAHA ^^
And, of course, I love my three girls. Thanks for the great day! ;)
Mwaaahh~

YOU.
Build me up, break me down.

"Awwww~ I'm so bless to have you!"

WithLove, Mira(:

goodnight

2009-11-19T06:34:00.000-08:00

Awww Mimi, i love you like my own brother ^^

THE REAL FACT IS.

I keep forgetting to forget about you.
I can't face the fact i'm giving up.
I can't help it but to admit.
I'm calling it Quits real soon. But somehow, people say, giving up just aint me.
And when they say that, it reminds me of ..... uh, you know who.
I dont know what else must i do.
It takes two hands to clap baby.

I'm hating. I'm crying. I'm sad. I'm angry. I'm disappointed.
I rather turn off all these emotions.
And act as though i dont care right?
But i can't.

You know, i know everything happens for a reason.
People tell me, C'mon look there.
It just feel neutral.
Its either i have a cold heart, or i'm blind.
But either option, i still could not feel the spark.
I feel like a heart-breaker, really.

Cause the real truth is, these all are breaking me.
How i wish you knew everything.
Why must i care when the other party does not even bother?
I cant be always the one, eventough i tried so many times to look at a positive perspective.
How i wish you knew that i've always been the one tryna tie back the string, whenever its broken?
I tried so hard to occupy my time with things, be it nonsensical, or necessary things.

I wanna call it quits. Let time just decide.
=(

work.

2009-11-18T17:22:00.000-08:00

Why am i posting all this pictures? Random? No.
Cause i miss going out with them :(
I miss all of them.
The reason is because? : WORK. WORK. WORK. =.="

o.O When Al reads my blog. He'll be like. "I work, nak carik rezeki. [He talks like some daddy.]
Not for fun lah. So can earn money. blablabla~

HAHAHAA. Anyway, i think he is used to me always grumbling. Kan Gajah? [Inside joke]
I wanna work as soon as possible. Al said this to me yesterday on the phone.

Al ; Oh you wanna search for work eh?
Me ; Ya. I WANT! IDC! I'm sick listening to you always working eh. Pffft.
Al; Oh okayy. I hope you wont get. HAHAHAA.

WHAT A GREAT WAY TO MOTIVATE ME! =.="
Thanks eh. HAHA. But too bad, I STILL WILL. JUST WAIT.

& Al starts his "prangai". He said this.
HAHAHA.

Later kan, when you work. Confirm things will change.
Uh? Like whuaat sia?
Ye lah. You will come back home late. then meet new people.
Oh, okayy. So you think i will change uh?
Ya lah, slightly. [I know in your heart. ALOT!]
Uhmm. [I got speechless]
Oh last time you work till late night, i never say anything eh. Then now you this way?
That was last time. Now i'm working till 5 only what.

Its time for you to feel it. HAHAHAAHAA. *evil laughs.
I'm so evil. ^^

I am sick and tired rotting at home. I swear. I can't stand it.
I need to drag my feet out of this house.
I NEED. I MUST.
The people around me will be my victim. Cause i'll be complaining to them.
I'm sick of grumbling from day to night, telling people i am real bored to death. HAHAAHA.

Shutup Mira. Pfft.
Toodles Lovelies ;) Byebyebye.
Withlove, Mira.

sigh.

2009-11-18T01:36:00.000-08:00

I think i'm fickle minded. [Hmmm?]

Forth post. IM BORED TO DEATH. i swear.

This convo made me smile a lil. Orix is super crazy. HAHAAA!

Click for bigger image. HAAHA!

Help me. I'm irritating alot of people just because i'm bored. HAHAA.
=(

i cant be the only one.

2009-11-17T23:32:00.000-08:00

This is the third post of the day.

I'm sorry. Sigh. I'm feeling very.. IDONTKNOW~
I dont know whats wrong with me.
I feel so troubled.
That quote really suits me today.

I'm really tired of everything. Sick and everything.
I just wish i could give up.
I wish i could live a life on my own.
If only someone out there could understand me. SighOutLoud.

Can i cry? :(
Crying makes someone better right? I'm not strong after all.
I wakeup feeling so dreadful.
I can't help it but to think about it over and over again.
I stood up telling everyone i'll be fine, i'll be okay, But for the real fact im not getting any better.

Cause the truth is, I'm sick of pretending.
I feel like crying.

sigh.

2009-11-17T18:02:00.000-08:00

Have you ever felt so remorseful?

Yes, thats was what i felt.
Some people say, never look back. But as for me, i look back.
I've been through that rollercoaster of emotions.
And it was dreadful.
I can't describe it here.
After giving your best and you've got something you never expected it to happen in return.
It was a hell.

The scars still remains right?
I never want all those nightmares to haunt me back.

I never want to hear empty promises again.
I never want my heart to break.
I never want to give countless of chances again.
I never want to give in again.
I never want to be treated like a fool.

I'm terrified. I'm scared.
Sometimes i feel i'm being egoistic? But who cares?
I've got to stop being selfless, for once. Cause, i need it.

those mountains.

2009-11-17T17:25:00.000-08:00

YAYYYYYYY! I'M HAPPPYYY (: a lil'.

Yes, i'm happy cause i've got a new phone and i'm able to contact people around the world [fake]
HAHA! Eh, im super happy okay.
The moment i get my phone and when ive done getting it fixed,
I began my five pages of explanations. HAHAAHA!
Long right?
Shuts. I have my reasons (:
Need to be apologetic you know. ^^

And so, i had fun yesterday night chatting all night long[fake].
Cause y'know... someone slept early.
So i had nobody to entertain me.. [pathetic eh? HAAHAA!] & my wonderful MSN friends entertained me! :D
HA HA HA!
I laughed my ass off while chatting with Nat and Haikel.
They are both crazy peepos.
Nat gave me her "EXPENSIVE" face. Damn it, i should have captured it. HAHA!
Haikel kept laughing at my story uh. Wahlao.
"Jantung sakit dibuatnye." *can i punch you? HAHAHA! ;)

But nevertheless, i had fun! thaaaanks ^^

Sigh. Some things just caught my attention.
And made me think for quite a while. Thanks BestBuddy for all those advises.
Ive asked my closed ones.
=(
But... nevermind. Sigh.
I just dont wanna care about it, FOR THE MEAN TIME. Can it be forever too? :(
Okay i've made up my mind.

I. DONT. WANT. TO. THINK. ABOUT. IT. Final.~

I wish you knew what i'm feeling inside.
I wish you could read this heart of mine.
I wish my heart could speak.
I wish life is much more easier.

Cause i'm still afraid. I'm really afraid. Its traumatic. I swear.
I wish someone would understand.

"I've went through more than enough, and now i'm afraid."
Withlove, Mira(:

im so sick

2009-11-17T03:31:00.000-08:00

I'm sick and i'm feeling so dreadful.

HELP ME.
I've been having flu since yesterday night. I thought i'd be fine today.
But, i dont think so.
It was bad. I was sneezing most of the time, and it just won't go away.
No matter how hard i tried with my own ways.
But instead, i FAILED :(

Now, tissue are my bestfriend. I'd bring a plastic bag and a box of tissue to everywhere i go in the house.
I HATE THIS I HATE THIS.

Ohya, one random fact : I wanna lose weight. I know it sounds so revolting, but,
I'VE GOT MY REASONS.
Which i dont know, its an accepted reason or ridiculous reason.
But nevertheless, the bottom line is.
I STILL WANNA LOSE SOME WEIGHT.
Final.

I need tissues! I'm feeling so SICK =(
SICKSICKSICK!

K, bye! Toodles ;)
I'm going to play badmiton with Nisa tomorrow. Yeah~

Chiowww~
Withlove, Mira.

ive always knew you're the best.

2009-11-16T17:34:00.000-08:00

You USED to take my breathe away with everything you say.
Now where are you?

Hello Beautiful People Of The World! (:

HAHAAA! To those who are irritated with my IDONTKNOW how many sad smiles in MSN.
I'm apologising. I think it kinda disturbs you right.
SORRYYYY PEOPLE :D
It disturbs Al!
Thanks to those who understands! Sayang you all forever and always ;) Mwaaah!

One random fact :
I miss my girls! I want to hang out with you girls! NAT! I miss you, y'know that?
We'll hang out and chill somewhere alright. Its a must okay!
Sayang you forever and always! Mwaaah!

I so gotta catch up with life. I need to get back to the position i was at.
I need to get my story startin'.
I need to know where am i at. Cause i'm curious about everything.
Insecurities lingering.

Cause,
I AM LOST RIGHT NOW.

I'm bored to death sitting at home, i swear. HAHAA.
I can't stand sitting in front of the computer from morning, till night!
Can die you know? Myopia! HAHAAHA!
I am gonna sort my holidays out.
I'm gonna plan. [FAKE!]

Anybody knows where's RKT?
Wahlao, why am i asking you people?
HAHHAHA! Pffft.
Cause i really miss him. I miss everything about him.
I miss disturbing him.
I miss him tolerating my nonsense questions.
Like, "what if i die uh? Wanna go Old Trafford?" [ Nonsense right.]
I miss texting him. I miss laughing and smiling when he is crazy.
I miss us being so WORLD&FAKE. [lots of it]
I dont even know where is he now? Sigh. :(
Endurance Mira.
we've endured for like 3 months?
Nevermind~
Patience is virtual. HAHHAA.

"I miss & treasure you alot, in case you dont know. :) " , RKT.

I hope that high waisted skirt fits me.
:(
HAHAHAHAA! pray hard.

Hazwani is so special. I dont know how to get to her. But i know she'll be reading my blog :P
HAHAAHA.
Wani! where your tagboard uh? Go Haji tk datang balek eh?
Wahlaaaoo :(
Dreadful tau without your tagboard. HAHAAA!
& I love your blogsong.
Since when you're inlove with Justin's song eh? AHAHAHA! ^^
BRING BACK YOUR TAGBOARD!
Belikan die ticket balek singapore lah. So warak eh your tagboard :P

PS; IVE GOT A NEW PHONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNEEEEEEEEEEEE! :D:D:D
*screams out loud!*
Okay i'm happy like cat! ^^

Toodles people! love y'all! ;)
Withlove, Mira!

with out you

2009-11-15T19:33:00.001-08:00

Can i just admit i miss RKT?

Why must i go through alot? I've spend enough for my previous.
Which drove me to hell. YES HELL.
And its really dreadful not texting RKT when we're supposed to.

Tell me how am i supposed to make it without you?
Without you i dont know.
I'll never be right without you.

I get fed up with myself, for all this shits i'm going through.
See, everything seemed NOT RIGHT with me.
Well, thats the pattern.

WITHOUT YOU, its like THIS.

toodles! .
Withlove, Mira.

random.

2009-11-15T06:43:00.000-08:00

I don't get it, really.

Sometimes I really wonder whatever i'm thinking is really what i'm feeling.
Cause i'm in a dilemma.
I dont know how to trust my own instincts.
Then what can i depend on? Nothing.

I dont know how to decide. I dont know whats next.
I wish i had a future-predictor.
So i know whats next.
Pffft. Can anyone please invent it for me? Pretty please.

I went to blast those musics to my ears, and my imaginations went wild.
Really wild. And it went really far.
Snap into reality Mira.

My story has not started. And i'm already digging my scalp for answers.
I better go before i rant out more nonsense.

" I miss you, everyday. "

Toodles :)
Withlove, Mira!

2009-11-14T19:18:00.000-08:00

TADAAA! this is RKT. Kidding! (:

I just wanna tell you, if anything happens, i really treasure and miss you. HAHAHA. in case you dont know ^.~

I am really bored at home. Super bored. I've been complaining that I'm bored since day one after Os finish.
Simply because, my phone is dead, and my only way of connection is through MSN.
WTH. Yesyes.

I'm supposed to enjoy like there's no tomorrow.
But it seemed so, dead. wth.
Okay, i better stop grumbling.

I wanna plan what to do today. =.="

"Everything little things you do, makes me this way."

okay, Toodles Lovelies ;)
WithLove, Mira!

tired

2009-11-14T06:59:00.000-08:00

I JUST CAME BACK FROM TOWN AND MY FOOT HURTS ALOT.

Hello Lovelies, i had fun going out with Ain. That biatch.
HAAHA. And finally, she bought her prom clothes. congrats to her.
I am really tired. And, i wanna get off from this seat.

I miss RKT.
I need a new phone.

Toodles ;)
WithLove, Mira.

make me fly.

2009-11-13T21:40:00.000-08:00

I WANT TO GO OUT TODAY!

It was dreadful yesterday. My phone is spoilt.
Omg, to those who need to get through me, house phone alright, or to my girlfriends.
HAHAHAA.
The last message was from RKT. HAHAA. Pffft. What a day.

Anyway, i was sad yesterday and a great friend managed to cheer me up.
THANKS RAAQIB (:
His cat, NONO, my cat, FATTY, HAAHAHA. Omg, his cat is wonderfully fat and gorgeously cute!
SERIOUS SHIT!

Look at the cat, No need to look at him (HAHAHAA!)

CUTE EH! OMGOMGOMG. I can go head over heals whenever i see his cat. SUPER CUTE.
SUPER FAT. HAHA.
He'll be sending his cat to me soon. ^^ FASTER EHH!
& anyway, thaaank you for the awesome chat eh! (:

I love fat cats. like Fatty and Pogi. HAHAHA! But i'm afraid of their size? :S

I WANT TO GO OUT! okay bye :D
& Now, im addicted to one korean song. OMG, IT IS SO NICE.
I WANT MY PHONE :(

ITS HAS NOT STARTED. & ITS NOT THE E.ND

HAHAA. Toodles, Byebye ;)
Withlove, Mira.

move on

2009-11-12T20:45:00.000-08:00

The person you can't live without, can live without you.

Pretty much true uh?

Sometimes when people decided to leave you for good, you have to let them. No matter how much you don't want them to, there are some things far beyond our control. Even if you have the strength to fight for them, you have to accept the cold harsh truth.

Lagi true eh?

Let go when you’re hurting too much. Give up when love isn’t enough and move on when things are not like before.
Cause for sure, there is someone out there made just for you.

True.

Taken from a blogger.
Nah, I'm just random. Toodles :)

five relentless months.

2009-11-12T17:44:00.000-08:00

H to the E to the double L and O!

Hello lovely people of the world.

I am extremely bored to death. Cause Os finally ended and........ OBVIOUSLY I AM BORED!
to death. HAAHAHA!
I'm sorry for letting my blog die, cause something happened. Pffft.
Nevermind.
And eventough things are not okay yet, but i managed to get hold of the computer.
Better than nothing right. Thank God.

Well, 11th marks the end of my endurance game. Its finally O.V.E.R!
Hip- hip- HoooOooooorraaaayyyy!~ :)
And RKT will be finishing his Os today! :D:D:D:D
His text messages are very random. And miraculously, he remembered our 5th Month K.E.O!
Eh, can i just slap myself?
Cause i planned to keep it quiet.
HAHHAA. It was dreadful texting him on the 8th, but i was asking him, what date is tomorrow,

ME: Oh, okay. i'm eating. HAHAA. What date is tomorrow?(:
RKT: Oh, tomorrow? its monday. its on the 9th, And its my brother's birthdayy! :D
And, anyway today is our......

My eyes popped out. [fake] HAHHAA!
But obviously, i was speechless luh. Who isnt?! Pffft. Me only la.

ME: Yes, exactly. I know. I kept quiet. Cause, i thought i was nothing whuaat. So yeah.~
RKT: who says so? Hahaha! ape je! Then why i texted you before midnight huh? (:
ME: Who knows? While waiting for the big game?

RKT: Whatever it is.... *youcantknowtherest*

HAHHHAHAAAAHHAA ^^
Everything was just unexpected. cause we were busy with Os.
And, i forgot the fact that 8th is coming, when i'm always chasing that number.
It takes two hands to clap y'know.~

Well, truthfully, I dont know what's gonna happen next.
Its just between me and myself.
But, I hope i'll make my way through. It aint easy, but I'll have to go through it somehow.

Yesterday's outing, watching 2012 was... FANTASTIC!
HAHAA, except for the going back home part. I wanna take pictures, but.
Dont mention it =.="
Nevermind, there's gonna be a next time. & obviously, everyone MUST COME.
HAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAA. No nonsense reasons: WORKING.
I'm tired hearing that y'know? Pfffft :)

I dont know, but me and Al had been "prangai" alot these few days eh.
I mean, its really alot lah.
" Kau prangai pe. HAHHAHAA"
But nevertheless, i just love bitching with him.
He listens, i bitch. HAHAHAA. But its rare hearing him bitching.
Cause, i never hears him bitching before.
You dont know our definition of bitching :) *winks!

I wanna go jog. I kept saying this, but nobody wanna follow me. HAHAHA!
I wanna go jogging, cycling. everything lah!

Yes, sometimes i cant deny the fact that i miss you alot.
But, idk.
I hate the fact that I-dont-know-who-to-trust.
Get what i mean?

" Nonono... My dream girl that i'm impatient to meet is the girl i met five months and one day ago.. ^^ "

Toodles Lovelies! Love y'all.
I'll post some pictures to my dead blog, if there is ah.. HAHAHA!
Byebybeyeyee! Mwaaah~

WithLove, Mira (:

mira say miss her

2009-11-11T17:44:00.001-08:00

On hiatus!
Something happen!
i'd be back when everything is okay.

Miss me ya'll!

this is nisa by the way! HAHAHAHAHAHA!
ILOVEMIRAAAAAAAAAAAA!

Hello, world. Purple is awesome.

2009-11-09T06:18:00.001-08:00

Ni lah salah satu gambar di mana muka mira sungguh bacin.

Mira's mum locked her computer so her infamous hacker is back again !

Okay, so I went out with this spaz just now.
Miss her lots :)

I just want to state the difference between Swensens and BBQ chicken.
Hahahahah *inside joke*
Mira should know since she made this mistake just now.
hilarious.

Okay. Buh-bye.

Purple13Lautner signing off ! :P

Mira: Red sucks, Rafael's hair is like an unkept bush.

love ya mira !

disappointed

2009-11-06T23:04:00.000-08:00

I dont know how disappointed am i inside.
Its indescribeable.
This disappointment just dampens my mood. I need a break.

I'm speechless. I need a break. I need to be alone.
I need to talk to myself.
Sigh.

I'm sorry. & You're sucha disappointment.

Continue doing it

2009-11-06T20:45:00.000-08:00

No more boyfriends, Killing my emotions.

Thats just a song lyric oOkay.
I had 2.5 hours of sleep. Cause i was doing some things?
HAHAAHA!
Shhh, keep it low low loooOooww~
I really hate it when this happens, but i've gotta keep holding on.

Instead, i asked my classmates along to BBQ then lepak till like 2AM. Jealous kann?
Me jealous? NONO.. you're jealous right cause most probably i'd be going...
Nono, i aint jealous. Cause, maybe we can swim. then i can teach the girls to swim ^^
Okay lor.. Then i'd dance with those guys.
Ohh ..... K ..... Go uh i'm sure they'll enjoy it
Fine, nope i wont. Not interested anyway. You go uh teach, im sure they'll love it
I won't too cause they are capable.
While i can't.
You can, when i teach you.

PS; Somehow you made me laugh like there was no tomorrow. HAHAA! *secrets*

I DEFINITELY HAD FUN. *winks!

Looks like i've got to start it all over agaaaiiinnnnnnnnn~

LOOVEEEEEYOUUUU PEEEPOS! :D
Withlove, Mira~

2 relative months.

2009-11-06T02:58:00.000-08:00

If i've endured for three months, obviously six days is nothing to me right?

Yes, thats right. I've been there, done that. [ Sounds so hazwani! ] HAHAHAHA!
(:
And, obviously after Os, i'd do the same thang to RKT. Ohplease tell me i'm very bad.
I've told him already! And, we've just gotta wait for a week,
AND, questions time!
He could tolerate each & every of my nonsensical questions. He said it himself! (:

Basically, that person answered it wrongly which he had actually answered it correctly at the very first time.
But, he changed his mind and was really confident of his answer.
While in my heart, "Wahlaaao, i'm giving you hints to change and yet to still stick to that answer?! Pffft~"
:(
Its gonna be six dreadful days. I am gonna take it easy yaw.
YES I AM.
I've gone through it before, worst that this. so its gonna be a smooth one for me, insyaallah.
I just gotta be determined to reach that goal of mine. Pffft,
And now, i'm typing like one yaya-papaya. HAAHAHAHAHAA!
Okay shutup Mira.

Well, since i can't get my way to that person.
Here is my message to you.

Hi! Its been relatively two gorgeous months uh?
Yes, its really fast!
Very very fast indeed.
Knowing you people wasnt a regret AT ALL, serious shit!
I had fun laughing, being crazy. Ohyeah, its been really fun!
It kept me smiling and laughing.
And of course, you made me laugh and smile too like cerazaaye!
You imitated most of my rubbish words,
and somehow its a part you already eh? Sepak muke kauuu~
Oh, trademark mayne!
Thanks for being sucha wonderful friend.
I dont know how many times i've gotta thank you, but here's a big bigger biggest
THANK YOU
for you.
If i could tell the whole world, how of such a wonderful friend had you been,
I WOULD!
I would proudly tell them it is you!
I dont care whatever people are gonna say, I am gonna fight for it.
And i mean it.
You've been there for me through it all, and when i'm at my wits end,
when i needed someone to rant my anger out.
Every of them!
Faithfully listens to each and every of my words.
& Also, straining your eyes just to talk to me at night. Woah,
that really meant alot to me!
It doesnt mean I am crazy, i am oblivious of whatever that is happening to me.
& for everything you've done for the past two months,
Sincerely from the bottom of my heart,
Thank you so much(:
I'm sorry too if i've ever tested your patience and made you mad till your maximum,
But i dont think so i've gone through that before right?
So should i? HAHHAA!
Kidding! (:
Wednesdaayyyyyyyyyy yeah. Sigh.~

Nisa had been sucha a wonderful bestfriend.
HAHAHAHA. And, i really can't wait to watch some new telecast drama.
Woah, i've bought popcorns okay!
Fast game.
I kept laughing at her.
But somehow, we find ourselves crazy.
Cause we will laugh at each other, hit hit each other with our "future" things,
then somehow we'd be sad back =.="
Its like, one minute happy, then the other minute, you're sad.
Nonsense right! HAHAHAHAA!

My uncle was being sarcastic, and he bought for me a New Balance running shoes.
=.="
Woah, its like he is telling me to jog. Pffft, i will okay!
Nisa, set date and time! HAAHHAA!
I need to lose some weight. [WORLD!] HAHAHAAHA! which obviously i won't lah.
I think my bones are heavy. eh?
HAHAHHAA!

I am really tired following my mum yang "tak ada arah tujuaan" to IKEA.
It was a waste of time,
and i was really yaya-papaya to take the big yellow bag in the first place then throw it somewhere cause the bag was empty?
Pffft, HAHAHAA!
And, i straight away invade my bed once i reach home. ^^

HAHAHAHAHAAHAHA.
Okay i've gotta chiow~

O's is gonna end really sooon. [ I dont know how many times i've repeated this ]
Excited! YAYYYY!
But at the same time, i'm scaaared. Shhh~
Six days is gonna past fast, trust me!
Insyaallah~
PS; My phone is not vibrating! :S

ILOVEY'ALL! (: Mwaaah~

Withlove, Mira! (:

i cant wait.

2009-11-05T04:57:00.000-08:00

LETS BRING IT BACK.

Greetings lovely people.

Okay, first of all. I had fun laughing my ass off bumping into Devona, that loner at Causeway.
HAHAHAA!
I laughed my ass off when i was her.
Well y'know, she loves to create stupid and nonsense comments.
And i love her accents. Its fun to hear and laugh.
People are all looking, but i just can't help it but to laugh it out loud.
I just love being by her side (;
She makes me smile. I love you Ona! HAHAHAAA!
I cant stop reminding her about the magnum thingy. I aint gonna reveal it here,
But its just damn funny!
Right Nisa? HAAHAHAHAHAHAA!
Must wear sexy sexy eh!
Loveyou bbygirl. Mwaahhh~

Then half way while eating with Dev and Nisa, met Al.
HAAHAHAA! I love to disturb him.
My all time favourite thaaaang! (:
HAHAA! And, thanks eh for pulling me at Admiralty. Lucky the train nice enough to wait for me.
HAAHHAAHAHAHAA!
If not, i'd punch you ah. Aiseyman! ^^

Next, Met Mahd and went to eat at some place.
We waited since 6.45, and the food came at 7.45pm. Like hello?
Mahd was grumbling cause he said, "A Hungry man is an angry man."
Sumpah kau mcm paham.
HAAHAHA! where's your patience eh scuker? Pffft~
I kept repeating my nonsense sentence.

"Eh, wait for this food eh, like wait for an elephant to invade Northpoint sia!"
"I think by now, a turtle from the zoo reach sia!"
"Wahlao, even an elephant from Africa reach already sia!"
"People from Tampiness reach already sia!"

I was not hungry, but hello? the food came faster for the people that come later than us.
Can you tell me not to be a spoilt brat for a second? HAHAA!
Anyway, like you know, i hate saying Thank You to you,
Yeah, Thank you eh! (:
And please, we're just good friends. Serious shit.

Os is ending soon, and that marks of the start my enjoyment! ^^

"Woaaah! I can't wait to answer them with my fantastiq answers too! Shh, shh, back to reality! Hahaa!"

I am bored to death. I wanna enjoy like hell! <3
BIG DECISION to make eh?

Okay, takecare lovelies. I love y'all.

If you Torres, then i what sia? Miss Universe? She? Megan Fox?
HAHA.
Laugh out loud mayne!
All the best eh. My sincere wish lah.
You'll eventually learn as you gets older and of course, matured (:
Okay shutup Mira.
Why Torres? I musnt critic so much, cause RKT loves him. Pffft~

=.="

Okay chiowww!~ Goodnight honeylovelies.
Mwahhh~
Withlove, Mira! (:

so hard.

2009-11-04T05:05:00.000-08:00

It got me thinking so hard.

While i was inside the train, i stopped and stared into blank spaces.
And all of a sudden, within a few seconds, i started thinking about some things.
Some things which i dont even know whether its concerning me now or not, and obviously, things that are bound to happen.
My heart sank, and i almost broke down.
It was strange, cause i didnt why i was that way.

& Sometimes, i really feel i couldnt see that glimpse of hope?
And, i really feel like giving it up?
But, I must never make a rash decision. I've gotta think it through, again & again.
Maybe I am feeling this way, and thats the reason why i'm thinking of lots of silly things.
My mind went wild, really wild.
Everything that is happening now seemed so fake.
I hate it when this happens.
I hate it when i'm stuck in this kinda situation.
I really hate it when i get this kinda treatment. I'll return it the same way.
It totally pisses me off. Like hell-loads.
Cause i couldnt be bothered. I know it aint the right time.

But nevertheless, i aint gonna bother about it too much.
I really gotta see what is gonna happen next.
I dont wanna make silly assumptions and drive myself to hell later on.
SIGH.OUT.LOUD.

Pardon me for my VERYNONSENSE post.
I just, gotta let it out.
It is so heavy inside. I need to feel better.

My phone is spoilt. And, its very spoilt. Ohgod, how am i gonna live this way?
Pffft, =.="
Its okay, i'll find my way to fix this current situation back.
Okay, takecare.

Goodnight lovelies. Love ya'all.
Mwahh~
Withlove, Mira (:

boom boom boom

2009-11-03T21:21:00.000-08:00

I'll be the last one on the dance floor ohh ohh ohhh~

Hello lovely-people-on-earth!

HAHAHA, yes tell me i'm very excited. I am!
Yes, i am really excited. Ohplease, i am really excited.
Cause for the fact that, Os is ending really soon. REAL SOON.
Wow. *boombz!

Nat was being randomly sweet. She said this.

And her PM was;
Ignore the Shit-ing part.
HAHHA. Charlie Angels. WOW (:

Sweet pe kau Nat? HAHAHAHAHAHA!
I love you yesterday, now, later and forever. HAHAHAA!
:D

I'm so hyper. I'm meeting Panda, Nisa and Al, in a while's time.
I wanna have fun.
And i'm famished. Very.

My deepest condolence to Myra. Be strong alright girl.
(:

I love my girls, my people. Everyone.
11th November is coming, real sOon. 13th too!
Then, its partyyyyyy time!

A person who is strong to overcome life challenges has a painful history of her own far back then.

Toodles! I miss you all. I'd catch up pretty soon. Hang on! (:
Withlove, Mira!

I dont wanna say.

2009-11-03T03:31:00.000-08:00

I DONT CARE ABOUT OHHHH-OHHH-OHHHH!~

Hello lovelies.

My hands are itching and i really gotta blog after sixteen years not blogging.
Okay, real fake.
Olevels was, IHOPEOKAY for me. Chem was my favourite. & ART too! there's more lah in fact.
I gave my heart & soul.
All the very best to me, and also others, insyaallah.
Alhamdullilah~

Anyway, I wanna rant out about something. So, bear with me for a while, please?
Thanks.

I hate the fact that its becoming this way.
I hate the fact that its this way.
I hate the fact that its happening.

I guess i have to accept it. Yes, i will. I am.
I know its happening.

Here we go agaaaaaaain~ Booomz Boomz Booomz~
Tomorrow, major paper is ending!
YAYYYYYY!~

On 11th November, i'll be the happiest person on earth.
HAAHAHAH.
No, many more.
Chioww~

ENDURANCEEEEEEEE!~
Withlove, Mira!~

toodles.

2009-10-27T20:52:00.000-07:00

HIAAAATUUUUUUUUUSS!

I'll be back real sooOon, lovelies (:
Do miss me!

O'LEVEEEEEELS, *faints!

OMG, i miss RKT so much. I'm so gooooOoona catch up with him.
And, that is a must (:
Perhaps, after his last paper.

AND, I MISS MY WOODGROVER FRIENDS SO MUCH.
I will catch up with you guys too after Os.
Really! (:
Miss each and every of you people<3
& Definitely, Al-Z too.
Cause, he is very very busy with worrk worrk worrk, which seems eternity to me.
(:

Takecare Lovelies! <3

WithLove, Mira (:

thumping heart.

2009-10-25T19:11:00.000-07:00

OKAY, O'Levels is in three hours time.
Wait, less than three hours time.

All the very best for all the candidates taking O's.

My blog will be on hiatus from now onwards.
Just leave a message at my tagboard alright! I'll reply, no worries sweethearts!

Miss me when i'm goOoooone~
Toodles people(:

LOVEEEEE YOU! (:

i hate it.

2009-10-24T01:25:00.000-07:00

I don't know what is wrong with me for the past few days.
I think i'm being a burden to some people.
I just can't shake this feeling off.
Os is just one day away.
I'm on the verge of giving up.
I don't think i can hold any longer.
I made a new friend(:
Amiirul/Keju is super crazy. Don't act you aren't(:
I've gotta replenish my vocabs.
I hate it when RKT is being so serious. [This is the first time i'm complaining okay.]
Dad pisses me off just because of a small thang~
I kept blasting my ears with loud music, but it didnt help at all!
I've been thinking too much. =.="
I think i'm going insane any moment from now.
I'm mad.
I'm angry. Wait, same right? FU lah.
I'm crazy.
Full of mixed emotions.
I hate myself whenever i'm this way.
It makes me feel so helpless. useless.
When i saw her, this remorseful feeling strikes me.
I'm going overseas after Os.

Da lah, k, bye!

your breather.

2009-10-23T05:26:00.000-07:00

I just love my selenger face. HAAHAHAHAHAHA!

Adorable right that cute lil' kid!
Yeah, very adorable till he has to follow whatever NONSENSE instructions given by his sister!
Nat, you should know what i mean yeah.
Can i kill you Nat? HAHAHA! Nat only knows how you laugh out loud!

Wahloa, but nevertheless, i still love you okay babygirl.~
Awwww. Aku sweet tak?
HAAHA!

Anyway practical was OKAY only.
Physics = sucks.
Chemistry = YAYYY, eventough i burned my thumb at the very last minute.
I'm sure gonna fail physics practical cause, i didnt had time to finish it?
=.="
I restart the experiment all over again when its 12.40pm, cause of the darn voltage reading.
Wahlaaao~

So, went to Seoul Garden today at Bugis.
I'm like so free to go there eh when Os is just around the corner. HAHAAHAHA.
Okay, i'm emotionally dont-know-what-happen-to=me.
So therefore, i need a break from all this shit.
But still, it didnt work! FU lah.

I missed three trains cause of Al-Z! HAHHA.
Sweet tak aku? Nk kasi kau direction punye pasal kan! HAAHAHA! (:

I'm gonna open my books. And i need my walking dictionary.
Okay, i'm gonna hit the books, television, and phone! :D

RKT JUST TEXTED ME, ALL OF A SUDDEN?
YAYYYY, Awwww~
k, bye!

sigh.

2009-10-22T04:27:00.001-07:00

Full of doubts.
Full of insecurities.
Very disappointed.
Scared about something.
Please pray for me. I need it real badly.
I dont wanna see the doctor.
My mind asked me questions which i dont think i can answer.
I'm happy cause RKT texted me (!)
I'm really afraid of something, sigh. [ Ain, you know it. ]
Full of mixed emotions.

Please don't disturb me today, i dont wanna entertain anyone.
I mean it, k, bye.

pain

2009-10-20T05:24:00.000-07:00

NEVER BEEN THIS PAINFUL!

Can i cry? Can i shout my lungs out? Omg, its fcukin' painful lahhh!
Wahloa.
I'm being very dramatic, but, its seriously painful.
I've never been in this pain, for like MONTHS.
Its just excruciating eh.

Stab me please? SIGGGHHHHH~
I can't study. I can't do anything! I'm like stuck on the bed.
Its killing me real badly sia.

I cancelled tuition just because of this. Os is just really around the corner, and here i am stuck in this kinda situation.
WAHLAO. WAHLAO. WAHLAO.

Okay, i'm off to hit the books. I hope i can.
Eventough its killing me.
Pills is the last option. No, first and last!
Okay bye!

I NEED TO PULL MYSELF THROUGH THIS PAAAAAAAAAAIN!~

hahaha.

2009-10-19T00:05:00.000-07:00

OMG, THIS CRAMP IS EXCRUCIATING. really.
How i wish someone could kill me instead.
HAHAAHHA. Craps.

I've been lying on the bed like one idiot paralysed person cause of this pain.
And, now it still bothers me alot.
I wonder what should i do to erase the pain off? =.="

I better go and revise now now now!
Chiow chin chioww~

xoxo, withlove Mira! (:

be on you.

2009-10-17T22:36:00.000-07:00

HELLO WORRRRLLLDDDD :D

Slept at 3am yesterday, talked to Al.
Ohgod, we've been really yaya papaya, to sleep at 5am.
But, in the end, i decided to give in, cause we both heard each other yawning.
HAHAHAHAAHA.
And his phone suck mayne. HAHAHA.
Since he is having his match, so, i shall, be nice to put down and let him have the rest =.="
HAAHAHA. sweet right?
So how's Diana? HAHAHAAHA.
Gatal ehhh~
Ohya! Al-Z, you owe me 2 chocolates! SNAAAP! ~
Ohya, did i tell you too, Al had been the best smiling pill these days?
Yeah, he had been.
He made me smile sooo widelyyyyyyyyy.
And, i made him blush sooooOooo easilyyyyyy~
HA-HA! &Hello hello, its so obvious ehhh, i mean, you blushing luh!
Tumbok kau baru tawu. :P
And sometimes we may get irritated at each other, and tend to curse each other,
Give me a few minutes, we'll be real fine! (:
And, we totally could relate to each other.
The best part is, he could play along with me. as in. KAU NAK CARIK PASAL NGN AKU?
HAHAHAHAAHA. niceee~~ so coooOool! (:
THANK YOU AL! :D

Oh, jerk blocked me. Guess what? I deleted his number and blocked him, like way so long bfore?
Too bad jerk.
I totally don't need you in my life?
HAHAA (:
I've been real nice to you, but you just dont deserved this nice treatment.
LOLS.

Os is near. I've been revising quite alot on maths.
And, i hope i'm getting the hang of it quite sooooooOoooon.
Okay, toodles love.
I wanna go out and reviseeeeeee! :D

XOXO, WITHLOVE, MIRA! (:

my fate

2009-10-17T03:32:00.000-07:00

It caught me thinking. Just so real deeply.

What is gonna happen right after Os?
Whats exactly gonna happen?
How is it gonna be like?
How i wish i could predict the future well.
As i'm typing, my heart is thumping so hard.
Ohwell, I'm just afraid.
And, let that be between myself only.
Let time & God decides it okay.
I mean it.

I love this song real badly, since last few months.

This guy, my current addiction is so superbly sweet.
Look up for the lyrics.
OMG. Can i melt now?
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA.

Did i tell you, i simply loves reading Wani's blog! Cause her post are all, random and makes sense!
HAHAAHHAA. really lor.
Let me copy a quote eh.

I CANNOT IMAGINE, WHERE I WOULD BE TODAY, WERE IT NOT FOR
THAT HANDFUL OF FRIENDS WHO HAD GIVEN ME A
HEART
FULL OF JOY (:

Now? It makes sense? HAHAHA.
I seriously agree with this statement, hundred percent!
And, if there's a "LIKE" to click on, like facebook status thingy, I'd be clicking on it for like,
countless of times? AHAHAHAH.OKay, random.

I had fun studying seven hours of maths.
YES, seven hours.
At least i studied right.
And, i slept for three syiok hours just now!~
NICEEEE y'know.

RANDOM: I miss RKT! , Like alot? Pfffft~ :(
I wonder how is he doing? Anyone knows? Haha.
I miss everything about him. Yes, everything.
Our nonsense crap that makes me giggles everytime i reads his messages.
And, that obvious smile of mine everytime he were to call or texts me.
And, i suddenly had the "missing" feeling today. I dont know why.
Maybe a motivational message before Os will do (:

Al-Z! OBVIOUS EH!
About whuaat?
I DONT KNOWWWW.
Like i said : I will never believe until i hear it with my own ears. Thats it! Final (:
No matter how many, OBVIOUS LAH, OBVIOUS EH.
Its decisive!
Y'know it boy, i dont know anything. HAHAHAH.
(: Gym eh. ^^

I wanna chioowwww chin chioowwww~!
xoxo, withlove, Mira! (:

true facts.

2009-10-16T18:20:00.000-07:00

When a GIRL is quiet , millions of things are running in her mind.

When a GIRL is not arguing , she is thinking deeply.

When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions , she is wondering how
long you will be around.

When a GIRL answers ' I'm fine ' after a few seconds , she is not at all
fine.

When a GIRL stares at you , she is wondering why you are lying.

When a GIRL lays on your chest , she is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a GIRL wants to see you everyday , she wants to be pampered.

When a GIRL says ' I love you ' , she means it.

When a GIRL says ' I miss you ' , no one in this world can miss you more than that.

Life only comes around once make sure u spend it with the right person ....

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot.

Who calls you back when you hang up on him.

Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead.

Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.

Who holds your hand in front of his friends.

Who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.

Yes, tell me i'm super random. Well, i was surfing the net in the morning,
and, i saw thaaaat. So, i begun to tell myself, some of them, i can't deny the fact, that its true lah actually.
So yeahhhh (:

Is that like an animal or somethaaaang?~
HAHAHAAHA. nah, it isnt.

HAPPY BIRTHDAAAAAYY ADLI IRFAN! (:

Finally you're seventeen uh? Please do tag if you're reading my blog.
I know, you've always been reading, but never wanna tag eh.
HAHAHA.
Anyway Adli, i really can't deny that you've been a great friend all along.
Even when people think other wise, but our friendship still stood up strong.
And, even if we're not that close right now,
maybe cause you're busy and i'm busy with my Os,
We'll catch up after Os okay(:
I'm sure there's millions of things we've gotta tell each other.
HAHHAA. Our daily routine.
You've been there for me, when the world are against me.
You've been a great listening ear.
You've been one of the best in my life okay? (:
& For everything that you've done, thaaaaank you.
Sincerely, thank you so much.
HAHAHA. Love kau Beestfriend!

Okay i'm going out to study.
I'm finishing up Os maths last year. YES I MEAN IT OKAY.
Pfffft!~
I dont know where's Al right now. ahahahahaha. i wanna ajak him.
But he is still sleeping so soundly?
=.="

"Let me show you the shape of my hearrt."

Toodles Loveeeey doveeeeeeeeey!
xoxo, withlove, Mira (:

awww.

2009-10-16T07:29:00.000-07:00

I smiled to myself while reading this.

"I'd built a red mansion just for you."
&
"If i could sing for you a song, it'd be DOWN."

I went to find mother's present today.
After few million times going in and out of the shop, i finally made up my mind to choose that perfume.
HAHAAHA, never bring Al-Z to shop, he can't wait!
He'll be, "Eh, cepaaaaat lah!"
Wahlao, can i please slap him? Pfffft!~ Slap you then you know eh kau!
HAHAHAA!

Then, i made something for my dearest bestfriend.
I love waking Ain up.
Oh please, if anyone wants to hear Ain's crap, please call her in the morning.
It'll make you laugh like shiaaat!

AINNNN! wake up!
Ain: Errr? uhhh..
Go showeeer! go go go! *hyper voice*
Ain: what for wanna shower.....

HAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHA!

The best part is, she dont even know whatever she was talking.
HAHAHAHAA. i like it mayne!

After buying the present, when i was otw to Novena,
Al and Me had a fight.
Ohgod, can i kill him? HAHHA.
We fight "yaya-papaya" siaaaaaaaa. Baru nk prolong it,
HAHHAA. But i lazy to fight lah.
But, of course i was mad lah. Pfffft~

Thanks for accompanying me okay Al?
(:
I rather have a nice man to accompany me, than having a jerk who just couldnt keep to his promises to accompany me.
Omg, jerk jerk jerk (:

Your attidude dont last you long, jerk.

HAPPY BIRTHDAYY MUMMMMMMM! (:

& tomorrow is my bestfriend's birthdaaay! (:
my Awww -Awwww~

xoxo, with love, Mira! (:

my bestfriend.

2009-10-15T07:06:00.000-07:00

A post specially dedicated to my bestfriend, Panda.

I just feel like crying real badly now.
But, let me just let it all out now, so, please bear with it. Thanks darlings.

I don't know how many bestfriends have i lost in life, thats for me to know.
But i really dont wish to push you away from my life.
You know, we do need each other.
I know to you, maybe there's no difference if i am here, or if i aint here.
I'm to be blamed for not being able to split my time wisely.
I'm out of words to say right now.
But, i'll just continue typing.
Sometimes, i really gotta say, i suck as a bestfriend y'know.
I'm really one lucky girl to have you in my life, no doubts about that.
I'm so proud of you.
In alot of ways. You heed lots of my advise, and never want to hurt me and bring me down.
You never want to disappoint me.
I observed lots of things without you knowing.
But, i kept quiet about it.
You played the guitar, hoping, trying your best to cheer me up.
I appreciates every single of it.
I really do.
Thats really sweet of you, real sweet.
Please dont say you failed to make me smile,
You know, when i was really sad at Mac the other day, who was the one who came with tissues?
That was you.
And, i cried cause i was touched to see someone handing out to me those tissues.
You still came to me despite of me showing attitude to you.
You see?
How can i possibly leave someone who cares for me?
Everybody has their own strength and weaknesses okay.
Nobody is infallible.
Who was the one who wanted to bring me to that calm place?
It was you right?
How thoughtful of you.
You sat next to me, just to cheer me up.
My heart was telling me thousands of words. But i showed my stone-d face.
HA-HA. How bad was i.

I was flipping through one magazine, and i saw PANDA.
You should know who am i reminded of.
A picture with thousand of words.

When i was reading the offline message you send me, my heart dropped dearest bestfriend.
My tears started running out.
I'm sucha cry bby.
=,(

Just so you know, i love you, bestfriend.
And, i miss everything.
I dont know where you're heading to,
Takecare.

sigh.out.loud.
xoxo, withlove, Mira.~

what should i do?

2009-10-14T06:48:00.000-07:00

WHAT SHOULD I DO?!

I'm really stucked.
I really need to talk to someone.
I can't stand bottling it up.

Bestfriend, you cant have me by yourself.
sighh out loouud.

Now tell me,what should i do?
Sigh.

after Os.

2009-10-13T19:56:00.000-07:00

3rd post of the day.

I wanna go Perth Australia, Bandung Indonesia, Batam Indonesia, KL Malaysia, Hong Kong. Bali Indonesia.
I am going to either one of them after Os.
Still considering. Pffft~

K, bye!~

forgive me if im being silly.

2009-10-13T19:15:00.000-07:00

Sometimes i just want to run away from everything.
yes, everything.
I wanna leave everyone right behind me and mend my own ways.
But, to think of it, am i being so selfish?
I wanna isolate myself from others.
And, i dont know whats wrong.
Somehow, deep inside me, i can feel its breaking.
I may laugh like some idiot outside, but its tearing me up.

I still can't get over some things.
I still cant accept myself for being such an idiot, from last time.
Maybe i'm easily fooled.
I've been too leniet, and perhaps i should change myself.
But, how? Its already my nature y'see.

I've got beautiful and charming friends.
They've been the best, no doubts about that.
They're just beautiful and charming in their own ways.

I've seen a total change in myself.
I can't let myself break just like that.
I've been a crybaby these days. Actually not these days, since the past one month.
I find myself being so fragile.
I find myself getting "bullied" so easily.
Ohgod, please make my life easier for me to go through.

I hope someone would slap me hard on my cheeks.
I've been "drowned" by some things.
I'm sorry lovers.

Okay, i'm gonna pull myself through.
I'm gonna try my best.
Take my words yeah. sigh~

One is better than Two.

xoxo, withlove, Mira(:

i wanna give up

2009-10-13T19:06:00.001-07:00

That girl should know how to appreciate her own boyfriend.

Forget about my caption, i was crapping.
Sigh.

I wanna give up.give up.give up.give up. give up. give up. give upppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppp~
on everything.

see, crap again. fcukit.
wait, can i?

thanks.

2009-10-13T04:39:00.000-07:00

Hey lovelies,

I am just not in my mood right now.
Sigh.

Haven't you just gave me enough?
Haven't you just put me through really loads?
What more do you want now?
Ive been a total idiot to stay true to my promises,
I've been a total idiot to give you chances after chances.
Why am i so dumb?
I don't know.
I'm born to be soooooo naive.
AND NOW YOU ACT, NOTHING HAPPENED?
Thanks yeah?
I totally don't need you anymore.

I'm broken.
K bye, i wanna go cry. I'm such a crybaby. sigh~
I wanna go study physics & maths.

I had fun with my two babygirls.
I love you both, plus Nurulain.

xoxo, withlove, Mira!

scared.

2009-10-12T03:55:00.000-07:00

SEE THAAAAAAT?!
HAHA. *winks.
& Hello, its the first try okay? (:

Greetings world.

I don't know why, but it seemed like today is "attidude" day.
Okay, forgive me for my bad explanation, cause i'm never good at typing out explanations.
There's something wrong with my eye, and thats why ive decided to give it a miss for class just now.
Its freaking-ly pain, and i was so annoyed by it, i went to poke the pust.
POKE okay. Using whuaaat?
PIN! HAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAA!
Yes, tell me i'm out of my mind. I think i am lah.
*smiles widely.

Shall not elaborate about just now.
Rudy, you're so dead. HAHAAHAHAHAHA. I was pissed eh. Thanks lah sngt sngt.
Deal ngn Nisa! OHOOORRR~ (:
I'm so lazy right now.
I need two ice cubes to be placed on my eye socket.
I'm going off right now.

I AM SCARED.
"Yakin kan aku Tuhan, dia bukan milik ku, biar kan waktu hapus aku."

xoxo, withlove, Mira!(:

sigh.

2009-10-11T06:09:00.000-07:00

I kept dreaming of deaths.
I kept thinking of death.
Sound really pathetic, but really, its really true.
I mean, i just realised just now.
Sigh~
Totally very scary. Scared to death.

See, death again. Woah, its scary sia. Shuts Mira~
And even as im typing it out, my heart is thumping so hard.
Oh puhlease, put some senses into my brain please anyone?
I kept thinking of it.
I kept thinking, how if i were to go really soon?
See lah, this happens when life is cool.

I went to the library with my two lovely bitches.
I've yet to get the pics,
and when i get them, i'll elaborate on it okay love? (:
But i totally had fun laughing my ass off.
Stay tuuuUUuuuune!~

NOW, YOU TELL ME, how you want it to be.

Be it this way? okay fine.
Till when? forever and always? Okay fine.
Resolve it? Its never in your brain to do it.
Act as though nothing happened? okay fine.
Assume as though my life had been great? Okay i will.
You thinking of me? you sure? I believe.

Cause you know why? I'm followin' the flow.

From the start, i've been tellin' you something.
Recall it.

I'd like to say thank you to Al-Z for making my day every single day.
He never fails to make me smile.
He never fails to be there for me.
I dont know why i'm tearing up, but, yeah. Sincerely,
thanks so much yeah.
Eventough we argued quite a number of time,
but still, he made me feel as though everything will be fine.
He assures me and made me gain back my confidence.
He pushes me through everything.
And, wakes up really early in the morning, to wake me up for school?
Hey Al-Z, if you're reading this, sincerely from the bottom of my heart, i'd like to say Thank You.
Y'know, sometimes i just know maybe you're irritated with me or something,
You just kept quiet.
Thanks for enduring, thanks for tolerating.
I just know i could spill everything to you. And you'll be my listening ear.
You faithfully listen to every of my words.
Be it nonsense or no links topic, you still tolerated it.
And, i realised, even if you're sleepy, you never want to tell me?
And for everything, i'd like to say thank you so much.
I dont know how to express it out,
I'm not good at words, but if you could read this mind of mine, you'll then know how thankful and obliged am i.
Oh, and yeah, thanks for volunteering whenever i said, "i need to talk to someone."
HAHAHAA, and for everything everything, for EVERYTHING,

Thank You So Much (:

xoxo,withlove Mira!(:

love issues

2009-10-10T04:06:00.001-07:00

Woah, lots of LOVE issues uh? HAHAHA.
I had fun procrastinating with Nurulain.
She's the best bitch ever to be with. HAHAAHA.

A : Mira mira, kau message Al?
M: Bpk aku pon ader namer Al.
A: uh? Ader ke?
M: ALiiiiiiii. Ali!

HAHAHAA! I had fun cooking. I had fun eating kueh raya.
I had fun laughing. Omg,
i tersasul banyak kali sia today. Alot of times. Countless uh!
I just don't know what was wrong with me. LOLS.

M: Ain, maner tempat kueh cornflakes?
A: Ah? kt sink ah.
M: Asal kau letak kt sink?
A: Da biz?
M: EH! kan leh isi lagi. HAHAHAA!
A: o.O eh? HAHAHAA!

Cute eh? HAAHAHA!
Later Ain Ali kembang, susah i.

We ate alot, i swear.
First, keropok lekor. HAHAHA.
This part is funny.
Her mummy fried for her the keropok lekor, then, i asked mother to fry our keropok lekor.
Nk challenge sikit uh sape punye lagi sedap.
HAHAAHA. :P LOLS.
and she went to eat it instead of hers. HAHAHAA!
And, i dont know what happen to the keropok lekor her mum fried! HAHAHA!
Then, we drank three rounds of Ribena.
We ate fried rice.

A: I can grow fat if i were to live with you sia Mira. And i dont have high metabolism rate like you.
M: *thinking* { i make my friends fat eh?}

HAHAHAHAAA!
I just love Food okay? sedaaaap~

Mother's birthday is on 16th.
Tell me whuat should i do for her? The perfume?
=.="

Ohyes, and i find guys who would love the girl for who they are,
are really sweet! *melts*
Random right? HAHAHA!
PS; Not many guys are like that oOookay!

xoxo, toodles, withlove, Mira! (:

loveeeee

2009-10-09T21:14:00.000-07:00

HELLO LOVE.

Well, i am effing bored right now.
Ain is coming to my house later. yay, im gonna rape her.
HAHAHA. kay bedek.
Anyway, i wanna study maths and chemistry.
HAHAHAA.

Ohgoddddd, i'm so tired yesterday.

I decided to go online and i was laughing my ass out mayne!
Look at the convo.
How crazy we were in the morning.

Kite sume bual world. HAAHHAAA.

The funniest part was this;

Nabilah and Aliah.

HAHAHAHA. Kaaaaannn~

Click on the image for clearer view.

okay, i've gotta blast off!
Do takecare love.

xoxo, withlove, Mira!(:

me me me

2009-10-09T07:21:00.000-07:00

Nabil!

Al-Z!

Me and my bestfriend!

My bestfriend!

My bestfriend, guy version! HAHAA

Did i told you i cut my hair? Tadaaaaaa!

Yes, Hello world.

Did i tell you i cut my hair? Yes, right? SEEEEEE! HAHAAHAHAHA!
Ohyeah, we went bowling.
To? release stress.
Mcm lah our life is like so problematic like that uh? You'll never know!~

Yes, someone told me, i am really happy right now.
I seemed so happy.
Yeah right, be ME.
Kay fine then, you may put the blame on me.

My friends had been the best these few days.
I miss my two girls.
Natasha and Ain! I MISS YOU ALL SO MUCH Y'KNOW?!
Pffft~
Its been weeks since the last time i saw you.
Eh Nat?

Thanks people for the fun time!
Except the time when we're going to our seperate ways.
Well, i feel bad about it actually.
yeah, really bad y'know.
To whoever it may concerns, you know who,
You know you've been the best bapok ever and had been there for me through this all right?
And, i'll never wanna have a real fight with you for long. Skejap je boleh.
You know i still do care right? HAHA.
Step je marah long long. Nah, i aint that type (:
AND, so i hope. you'll be okay.
And, you're okay. Okay?
(:

During bowling. HAHAHA. can i laugh?
Me and Al-Z really suck at bowling, but we got the hang of it as it goes by.
No confidence lah kan.
So, next time, I WILL STRIKE. AHAHHA. Mcm paham.
Al, never strike eh?
I yaya papaya, ended up having the same score as Al-Z.
Baru nk menang~ Isssh.

"Sape last belanje tau."

Mcm paham lah eh.
Nabil was the expert one and Nisa too! HAHAHA.
Nevermind, there will always be a next time eh eh eh~

I'm really obliged to have such sweet and caring friends that is always there for me.
Well, i really love you people okay?
Mwaaah~
HAHAAHAHAA.

If you're telling me i dont understand you.
MAKE ME UNDERSTAND YOU.
Why are you being this way?
Now me?
ME? Yeah, fine, me okay?
ME! ME!
Do you bother to text me when your phone is okay?
NO.
Did i get any phone calls from you?
NO.
Are you treating me the way you treated me last time?
NO.
Do you vent your anger to me last time?
NO.
Now? YES.
Just, tell me where did i went wrong?
You dont even bother to.

Thanks, just thanks so much.
If i didnt care, i wouldnt stay true to my promises to go out with you to buy mother a present.
TILL NOW.

Do you still bother? I guess no.
If you still care, do explain it to me.

Toodles Love.
xoxo, withlove Mira.

dont blame me

2009-10-09T06:22:00.001-07:00

I'll post when the pictures comes in! Soon yaw.
Its with Nisa.
then i'll elaborate on it (:

STAY TUUNNNNEEEE!

loveeee

2009-10-08T17:20:00.000-07:00

8th! OMG.

HAHAHA.
Hello world! sweeties, darlings! *hyper*

Today is the 8th, well, it marks the 4th month i know RKT.
HAHAHA. Ingat eh!
I still remember vividly how we knew each other.
Woah, awkward moments eh.
Both nk "jual mahal". HAHAHAAHA.
And, the best part was, we started knowin' each other on my BIRTHDAY. Best birthday wish ever from someone.
Actually, best birthday gift. *winks!
His surprise wish shattered, while, mine too shattered on his birthday! Pffft~
But nevertheless, we both said, our wish was the best gift.
HAHAHAAHHA.
Its the thought that matters the most whuaaat.

Well, HAHAHA. I'm very happy. Can i be happy right now?
Hahahaa.

I miss everything, yes everything.
I miss listening to MJ12, and got a random message from him sayin' that, "I'm with you."
WOAH. Stunned!
I practically misses everything about those times.
Yes, that 1239 messages is still with me. Yes, ask me how much text messages can my phone stores? i think ive got 5000 messages now in my inbox?
Which ive yet to delete? HAHA.
(;

Basically RKT is a really nice person whom never fails to make me smile or laugh instantly.
He means every of his words,
and doest LIE just to impress any senorita.
We can stay up and text till the next day. till for like 2am?
I just could relate to him.
He was there to listen to my problems and side me even when he doesnt know anything much about it.
He was my pillar of strength.

And, i wanna divulge that, I appreciate him alot, hell loads.
And, what is RKT real name?
HAHA. Nah-uh. I aint gonna reveal it out (:
Why should i anyway?

"When you have something precious, the whole world doesnt need to know about it."

HEHE.
I love my girls!

I told someone, after Os, classy place,
sixteen roses, a card written on red ink,
and, a red gift.
HAHA, pick me up under my block.
HAHAHAAHAHA!
Ngade ngade eh? Takper. HAHAHAA!

Olevels and when it ends, its the start of my HAPPPPPYYYYYY days!
xoxo, withlove, Mira!

woodgrovers.

2009-10-08T00:59:00.000-07:00

WOODGROVERS!

Actually its supposed to be another 15 people joining i guess?
But, somehow they wanted to go seperate ways.
HAHAHA (:
No doubts, they are really a bunch of nice peopleeeeee!

ilovemyfriends<3

xoxo,withlove,Mira!~

Happy

2009-10-07T06:41:00.000-07:00

I was excited just now cause i went to study with my Woodgrovers friends ^^

Woah, forcing Panda out was really a HELL to us mayne.
To me, Al and Nisa siaa.
Its all up to him and he was the last person that we've gotta get through for us to set the venue and time!
Woah, from 7.30am-1.00pm! HAHAHA.
How much longer could it drag eh? (:

I love my life now.
I wish it could be this way till Os end. Puhlease? I'm begging right now :D
HAHAA. Crap.
I frown less. I smile and laugh more?
All thanks to my girls and friends! Love you people forever and always.

Okay, i'm addicted to the sentence "Forever And Always."
HAHA. Very okay.

I've got an issue to bring up. Chey, seemed so serious uh? pffft~
Bedek aje. HAHAHA.
Sometimes i think back, everytime when people are happy, they would forget what actually makes them happy?
Okay, thats a total crap.
What i'm tryna say is that, they would not go deeper as in, think back, what and who was the cause of it?
Omg, i just scuk at explaining while typing.
HAHHA!
Nevermind, your life, your choice! (:

Thank God i'm feeling neutral right now.
*big smiles!

Mira, after Os okay? Classy place, nie bukan tempat Banquet atau pape tau.
Five star hotel pe? HAHA!
I work, you study hard.

Sweet pe? HAHAHAA!
It kept me smiling all the wayyyy~

Thanks for lying.
Thanks for breaking.
I GAIN M.O.R.E, I LOST N.O.T.H.I.N.G!

Not happy? Deal with it.
Cause, i've told you from the very start, i'm gonna win this war.
Yes, i'm winning.
So, don't be too confident next time okay?
HA-HA.
(:

xoxo, Withlove, Mira!~

Miss.

2009-10-06T17:07:00.000-07:00

HAHAHHAHAA! I AMMMMM SOOO HAAAAPPPPPYYYY!

Tomorrrow eh, tomorrow! Kay bye! :D
Omg, i'm so hyper!
I'm going to study with Woodgrovers with Nisa.
And, i'm going to school now!

I'm obliged to have so sweeet and caring friends!
(:
Yesterday i was ever so random to, send some sweet messages to my girlfriends.
HAHAHAHAHAA.

Nat was like, "asal kau sweet nie? lain mcm jeeee.."
I replied her. "Aku da memang sweet pe :P "

Sumpah aku mcm paham eh? :D
And, let me guess? I think i'm gonna hear some stories about me pretty soon *winks!
HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA.
Remember i said, I wont care? HAHAHA.
Ready. Steady. K, go!

What's wrong with me now? HAHHA.
I'm just happy lah kay? (:

I MISS RKT, crazyloads.

I'll update again later at night okay? (:
Chioww~

Os.

2009-10-06T04:09:00.000-07:00

I CUT MY HAAAAAAIR!

Yes, scream to my ear. I cut my hair.
I finally got the guts to cut my hair. HAHAHA. I talk as though my hair is like really really long gitu.
Nisa said i looked so girly. Omg, i can't stand that. HAHAHA!
I cut my hair to release stress.
HAHA, but that is one of the only way for me to feel relieved y'know.
Serious speaking.
(:

Friends had been the best pills these days.
I realised, alot of things.
Well, YEAH!

Went to Marsiling today to buy something, and texted Panda and friends telling them i was at Woodlands.
Eventough their Ns was at 2pm and need to report at 1.30pm,
They came down to hang out with us for a while.
Thanks! :D

I'm gonna update something out soon, stay tune! HAHA.
Ive been repeating the same old sentence again eh?
Sorry eh. (:

I'm lovin' life, dont make me hate it.
xoxo, withlove, Mira(:

that's not my thang.

2009-10-05T03:04:00.000-07:00

I'm gonna blog about something, real soon! So, stay tune.

Keep waitinggggggggggggggggggg~

xoxo, withlove, Mira.

i'm scared to death.

2009-10-04T17:06:00.000-07:00

I NEVER GO SCHOOL AGAIN! HAHAHAHAAA!

Cause i didnt had the mood?
Ohplease, let the day end faster, and the next three days.
I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO SOMETHING.

Open up my heart, and see how i'm feeling.
xoxo, withlove, Mira.

throw.

2009-10-04T03:42:00.000-07:00

Ilovemyretardedface! ^^

I'm turnin' around, I'm makin' my way.

I wanna tell myself, to be strong.
To make my way through.
I wanna put that aside, yes, i've promised Helmi.
Yes, I will.
I would be in my "Oh, i don't care~" kinda mood.
So, yeah.
Anything you people wanna tell me, i'd be like, "oh eh? HAHAHA."
Okay lame.

I wanna start mugging.
Haha. I wanna study? So, anyone wanna go study with me?
Okay, we wont procrastinate this time okay?
HAHA.

And, guess what? I've yet to buy for mother a present.
Eh, when leh?
I've promised someone that i'd go with him to buy the present.
And, even after loads of shits is happening, i'm still stayin' true to my words.
So, now what you've got to say about me?
Hahaa(: *winks.

OKAY, I WANNA GO DO MY REVISIONS.

"I wanna throw it one side, hoping you'd come and pick it up, and return it back to me."
I thought.

xoxo, withlove, Mira.

spinning

2009-10-03T20:46:00.000-07:00

Woah, once again, Wani never fails to introduce me new songs!
Her blog songs are superbly nice eh.
Pffft, don't expand eh. [Kembang] HAHHHAHAA.
I love your blog song. this new one.
OMG, SO NICE. ^^
*thumbs up!
And, where did your tagboard fly to? Mstk~

I don't understand what is happening right now.
I guess, please ignore my rantings on the previous post.
I syiok sendiri. HAHAHA.

Okay, so so so, I've got a mission to accomplish.
And so when i'm done, then i can get the full story.
I wouldnt wanna assume things so much.
So yeah.
Wait for me to be back okay? (:

Love you people.

I wanna know what is happening, before we chiong for Os.

fun.

2009-10-03T03:41:00.000-07:00

This is the 1st shot. HAHA. Muke nk kene tumbok eh tu Al-Z!

Greeting lovelies.

Sorry for the privating my bloggy for two days? HAHA.
Nothing much actually.
Anyway, sorry okay? *big smiles.

Well, went out with the Woodgrovers, jalan hari raya. HAHAA.
Unique uh this year.
Me and Nisa had fun luh.
We disturbed the guys. Cause they cant stop disturbing us? HAHAHAA.
Standard uh, they love to disturb Nisa about Arsenal.
And, ME? Anything that i did wrong!
HAHAHAHA!

Nabil was like kept wanting to punch me and Nisa.
Then jalan fanatic. HAHA! Crazy.
Al-Z is forever disturbing me. I just love to disturb him. "Tk haran eh.!"
Then, while walking to Al-Z's house, i tripped cause of the high heals lahh, alermak, paisey sia.
Yan saw, he was like.. " AL ! oi AL! aku nk bilang kau somethingggg! "
I was like begging him not to tell.
Cause Al-Z will definitely disturb me like shiaaat.
Then, after Al's house, Al tripped! HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHA!
I can't stop laughing.
Yan kept seeing me fall lah!
Irritating okay. And he'll be complaining to Al-Z!
HAHAHA.

I had fun except for the first few houses. My blood was boiling mayne.
THAT someone should know.
My phone was ringing and everyone in the house went silent. They saw my furious face.
Aiseyman, fierce pe ^^

I've yet to get all the pictures from them.
Will take them soon.
I had fun going out with the 14 of them.

But please, forgive me if i've spelled it wrongly. *paisey (:
Hidayah, Aziemah, Ijah, Aqilah, Gegerl, Kamariah, Fiqah, Natasya, Panda, Nabil, Yan, Nazim, Nisa, Al-Z and Me.
HAHHA. and Kamariah's small cousin brother.
It was a lil' awkward in the first place, but we got hold of it towards the end of the day.
Thanks Woodgrovers for the great day!

Al's cat is super cute sia. Huge like puppy! Sumpah. Serious shit.
His cat named Pogi and Tiger. Omg, super cute siaaa.
I was scared of the size eh!
HAHAHAHA!

The last house was the BaronBros house. But me and Nisa gave it a miss cause we were tired?
HAHA. But i ended up sleeping at 2a.m =.="
(:

Eventough we met some for the first time yesterday, they were really nice people i should say.
Awww, once again, Thanks woodgrovers(:
The more friends, the merrier. HAHAHAHAHAA!
:D

Can i rant out something? Nah-uh, i dont need your permission though.

Okay, i'm having difficulties trusting every guys on Earth.
Except for some.
You guys talk WORLD. Hahaha.
How should i put it in words? Hmmm, okay this way.
They dont mean every single words they say. All they do was to blame US girls.
Sigh out loud.
They can express out their wax lyrical words to us, but hell shit, they dont mean a single thing.
After all, its just words. You can play around with words.
They often gives us reasons. Shit reasons i tell you. Really, shit reasons.
But, I tak pasal.
You wanna play shit with me, carry on.
You wanna know something? You're a super disappointment to me.

Stop tellin' me the OLD you is coming back.
Fcuk all your words.
Sit down and ponder back. You being this way, you think i like it?
HA HA.
I loathe the new you.
Stop telling me you're this that whatever shit, cause there's nothing of what you said is true.
Thats why i had difficulties trusting you from the very beggining.
Sigh Out Loud.
I thought you'd prove it to me, but nah-uh.
From bad, to worst.
I like, oh, please, carry on.
Stop telling me you'd be there for me when you're never right next to me.
So much for telling me all that uh?
You know why i kept hurting you? Cause you made me to.
I HATE YOU. I HATE YOUR NEW SELF.
Sigh.
I love talking to the wall.

Nevermind, Os is neaaaaar. (:

Nisa, please dont be sad okay? He is not worth your tears bbygirl.
O Levels lah dear.
Its his lost, not yours. Tak pasal.
I know you're one strong girl inner and outer.
So, dont let this kinda shit things affect you. Omg, it sounds so easy to comfort people, But its so hard to do it.
Thats what i'm facing right now.
Lets pull ourselves through.
Put up a smile on your face, for i'll be there for you(:
I love you alot okay(:
Forever and always.

I've gotta chiowww<3

Your forever and always. sigh.

Thats why i'm not in love.

xoxo, withlove, Mira.

again.

2009-10-01T06:50:00.000-07:00

I'm open,
you're closed
Where I
follow, you'll go
I
worry I won't see
our face
Light up again.

Hi, how are you? I'm fine. Okay shuts.
I just need to rant out my feelings.
There's always a saying, never be too happy cause you'd only end up crying at the end of the day.
Yes, thats really very true.
I was happy like mad in the afternoon, but now? Dont mention it.
I just feel some things are not right.
Y'know that?!

That MSN convo? Pffft, i dont know.
I DONT KNOW.
Y'know that?!

Da,
Okay bye.